it's my life....

suddenly....

2006-02-27T20:06:00.000+08:00

we were 'kicked out' due to not enuff bunks for those drivers...were told to de-kit n stay-out from now on...mixed feelings...
plan to work hard on a 2 yr goal rite now...hopefully i can achieve that....
...

got my class 4 military license.....staying out for now...

2006-02-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

had a taste of staying out for the 1st time,after passing my class 4 driving...
life is like dat,when u r stayin in,u hope u can stay out....now when i stay out,i begin to think its not convenient for me...waking up early n travel for 1 hr plus to my camp...but they r not the main issue...the main thing is,i dunno wat to do when i go back home...other den facing my com,there is nothin i can do...

anyway,transport supervisor course starts next week...its a 2 mths course...rumours said dat it might be a stay in course again,although the previous batch is stayin out...if it is really a stay in course,i dun think i will feel as sian as last time again...i can save alot on meals,transports...n most impt,forget & end all my unrealistic thoughts....

first week...

2005-12-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

posted to sembawang camp but spend majority of the time in kaki bukit driving centre...though there is no fitness,exercise,chiong sua,tekan session etc...our schedules r quite packed...studying theories n doing practicals everyday ...as i had already learnt them b4,there is not much prob for me...but gonna drive the tonner for the 1st time next week...

after so much efforts seeking approval for my overseas leave frm all the big shots - staff sergent major,master sergent major n den to warrant (kena fuck by him the most)...how ironic i did not go malaysia due to the stupid passport...i tot tis week gonna be a wonderful week for me,but it ended up a fuck up week..........

haizz....

2005-12-19T18:39:00.000+08:00

will be having a 6 weeks course (till 27/01/06 )to learn hw to drive class 4 vehicle...i dun mind staying-in,but i had juz began to noe her abit better,now the chances for me to see her had reduced greatly...sianz....

anyway,came back home to get my stuff...tot i can still find her today,but i need to return camp by 9....how harsh can it be....will be booking out on friday again....cya guyz

my job....transport supervisor....

2005-12-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

went to my platoon mate,luke's hse yest to have a mini party wif the rest..when i reach there,i saw a big hse beside wif security guards wearing police uniforms outside dat hse...i found out later frm luke dat the hse belongs to goh chok tong...hw cool...
anyway,its nice of him to organise this gathering,as we noe dat once we got to our unit,everyone will be busy n will seldom meetup again...

anyway,yesterday was damn sway...did not check carefully when i reverse the car n it bang onto the wall of the multi storey carpark...the car's boot can be seen obviously dented...felt so guilty abt it,but luckily my dad din scold me..juz dat he ask me to compensate the damage...lolx..glad to noe it can still be save...

receive my posting today..my vocation will be transport supervisor in sembawang camp...got the contract tis week n i guess i am now consider a regular liao...think many r shock when i told them i had sign on,but i had explain to them y.....hopefully the plan i made n the path i take will be a successful one...wish me gd luck ba...

king kong.....

2005-12-15T03:16:00.000+08:00

has been quite a while since i went to watch movie..today is exceptional,as i gt free tix to watch king kong...actually i only had two tix,but there will be 4 pple going-me,xiuping,kenvin & lania..as the tix r sold out,i try to ask some of my platoon mates who oso had the free tix, whether they wanna sell theirs to me....thanks to raj,who offer those tix to me for free...

as i'm still unfamiliar wif city area,i made several wrong turns n almost cause us to be late for the show...thank god we still made it on time...tis show is longer den i expected,last for almost 3 hour..when i first receive the 2 free tix,was foolishly thinking hw nice wld it be if there is a ger watching wif me...cant think of anyone to go wif me...unexpectedly,there is a sweet ger watching wif me today..hw lucky i am..

great day..

2005-12-14T02:24:00.000+08:00

finally found a cool portable speaker for my ipod...instead of juz listening to the boring 933,i can now play my ipod in the car liao...

anyway,went to kenvin's mother's new prawn mee stall today...i must say the prawn mee she cooked is very delicious...actually feel like eating another bowl but too pai seh to ask...pian4 chi1 one bowl liao,somemore din have any cash ard at dat time..hah...

another last min program like yesterday,went out for supper @ 85...actually suppose to go Chomp Chomp,but i guess Lania's mum save us...cos Lania's delay allow us to pyscho mingyao to come east side instead....thanks to him,we r able to meetup wif caylin n oso a sweet lookin ger xiuping, who look abit like my friend silvia....juz like Lania when i first met her,she is quiet...wanted to tok to her,but din noe wat to say...i'm sux in breaking the ice..haha..

juz like yesterday..me,lania n kenvin slack inside the car @ her hse downstairs for almost a hour plus...funny place & experience to tok cock at..from 'no string attached',from 'being saved'...to toking abt my dream ger n career...thanks guys...tot this block leave gonna be boring since everyone is either working,studyin or serving govt...looking forward to watching King Kong tmr...

POP loh...awaiitng for posting on 16th...

2005-12-09T03:32:00.000+08:00

although i went to all the 3 graduation parade rehearsals,i fall out from the actual one yesterday..mayb abit stupid,cos i wasted my efforts practising all the marchings n arms drill,sweating and scoldings under the hot sun over the last week...however,since my parents did not come and no one was there to watch,i think chao keng abit is alrite..haha...also no nid to be so troublesome drawing arms n wearing the SBO,or worried abt fainting in the parade square (will kena confinement or sign xtra) as i still got the chance to re enter the parade square together wif the other chao kengs to perform the infantry roar n cap throwing after they came out of the parade....

after the cap throwing,i went ard searching for my platoon mates...shaking hands & exchanging hugs...had mixed feelings...feeling happy n at the same time sad dat we will be go our own way...also glad dat the few pple whom i had arguement wif shake hands,as our differences ended in the parade square...

now,i had block leave till 16th to find out where i will be posted to...although i will have almost 2 weeks resting n slacking,i guess i will miss my platoon mates n life in tekong...most of the pple i noe told me dat bmt is the best during NS life...it is after POP dat the nitemare really began...haa...had to wait n see whether tis is true...

major event over..waiting for pop in 3 days times !!

2005-12-04T09:32:00.000+08:00

finish 24 km route march yest...abrasions,blisters all over...but its okie,cos after 8 km,i was feeling giddy n tot i might fall out anytime....thank god i made it anyway...glad to see no one in my platoon fall out too.....

during tis week,i was appointed as platoon ic - (in charge) .. tis is a post everyone wanna avoid,cos its a stressful job as u r responsible for the platoon members strength,behavior,attitude or other admin stuff etc ...u will be punish if one of them fall in late or move slow...although i had 'escape' many times frm being selected,however,i'm glad i was given a chance to be a IC as it really test whether i have the ability to cope wif stress,and also allow me to find out whether i had any leadership qualities...i guess i had done an okie job...

3 more days to POP...3 mths had passed so fast...although recruits are being treated like shit sometimes (do lots of sai gan),i still love tekong as i had lots of fun there,suffer same kind of shit wif the rest and oso its better doing n learning stuff there compare to rotting at home...

field camp over...4 more weeks to pop.......

2005-11-13T16:44:00.000+08:00

field camp is a gd experience for me....although i dun get to bathe for 6 days,dun get to use tourch to pack or find things at nite(they saying wat light discipline crap),dun get to eat nice stuff (ration sux),dun get to sleep comfortably (wif long 4 n boots on,rain etc)....but i guess tis field camp made me abit more independant,n getting things done fast...

had a busy day yest...went out for the 1st time wif my platoon mates to eat steamboat at marina..tis is to celebrate the ending of our field camp and oso wanting to enjoy gd food cos we r eating craps for the past one week...after dat went to look for mingyao,kenvin n the rest in bugis and den east coast...was damn tired but still manage to stay till 5 plus am...during dat time,got to noe some new friends,updated wif lots of stuff...found out dat suddenly everyone seems to be enthu wif clubbing...clubbing is the root of all evil.so better beware guys...lol..

friends played an impt part in army..cos we share our joy,sadness n tiredness together..was discussing wif lania yest...she was saying some pple may have close friends,while some may prefer to mix ard n having more gd friends den close ones...i guess i am the 2nd type...
in a platoon,there r 4 sections....in my section,there r 2 grp of close friends..but i dun belong to either..cos i like to mix ard wif the other 3 sections instead of sticking in my own section....our bunk is always empty,quiet and boring as majority of them went smokin n dun really stay in bunk often..i guess dats the reason y i am not close wif them...however i am glad dat during tis field camp,i had found where i belong...section 2 welcome me unofficially as one of their section members n rename themselves as sect 2.1...we often reflect n share our feelings at the end of the day during the field camp...i like the unity,closeness,unselfish manner dat can be found in their section n is proud to become one of them..........

halfway thru my bmt....6 more weeks to POP...

2005-11-02T18:45:00.000+08:00

finally had a long 4.5 days break.....life had been fine for me so far...mayb dats becos the most siong part had not arrive yet -the 7 days Field Camp and 3 days Situtational Test...spent one day in the jungle doing the camou test last week...the muddy ground,weird small creatures,wild boars etc sianz...but no choice,still trying to prepare mentally b4 going for the field camp next week....but glad that i manage to pass my ippt and live range b4 tis bookout...the only bad thing is dat i will kena guard duty on one of those weekends....for a stupid mistake i made during a firing practice in IMT...

anyway...these 4 days rest seems to pass so fast...juz like b4,slack and slack at home,after dat went out wif the rest at late nites for kopi...yest is the best...get to enjoy so many gd food wif the rest at 85...bbq fish..ba chor mee...dessert etc tired of eating tekong chicken everydy...however, dunno if im mad or not...sometimes i feel dat being in tekong seems to be abit more interesting compare to the slacking lifestyle i had b4...mayb i wont said dat if i had a gf..lol....

surprise bbq for my 1st book out....

2005-09-25T09:57:00.000+08:00

guess my platoon mates r enjoying themselves too in their first book out...everyone so looking forward,counting down n singing the bookout day song 'adapted frm the once v pop techno song 'doodah' whenever we march........

when i reach home...i had a unexplainable gr8 feeling which i nv experience b4...since its the first time i had stayed out of home for so long......to my surprise,saw my com had recovered n began to surf the net,watch anime,log on MSN...

thanks to the kopi gang,who had a surprise bbq planning for me @ our new hangout place-changi...even at the v last min,every thing still goes smoothly....after bbq,they decided to go OCH...think the gers r more brave den me,next time i wont say a word when the guys wanna scare them into going haunted places...lol...sorry to disappoint u guys..cos i feel uneasy n dun wish to continue further after entering as i dun want to disturb them...in the camp i am in now,guess its better for me not to involve in these stuffs...

so fast gonna book in again.....hope everything goes well for u guys.......

14 days in tekong.........

2005-09-23T17:22:00.000+08:00

so far so gd...all along tot dat tekong is v old,but the bunk and facilities is actually quite new....though its tough in the beginning for slackers like me to sleep/wake up so early,doing routine stuffs frm day to nite....glad dat i had adjusted myself to the environment within the first few days...dunno issit i am botak or wat...last time abt 30-40 percent tot dat i am a malay....after i had shaved botak,the stats seems to increase to 80 percent thinking dat i am one...dunno
whether i shld luff or cry...i can only reply them wif 'gd,can sian malay babes oso'....

mayb im lucky,or mayb tis 2 weeks is juz an adjustment period..the sergents in my platoon is quite reasonable imo compare to the others i had seen..heard lots of pple saying the company i am in is a welfare one....last batch they had minister's son in there...tis batch there is a superstar in my platoon...lol...

i had mixed feelings abt army...on one hand,i miss my friends,family and also watching football matches...but on the other hand,the lifestyle i am in is much more healthier..there r lots of buddies around to share jokes and problems and oso tibits wif too...

b4 my enlistment.....

2005-09-10T10:52:00.000+08:00

had an enjoyable time spent wif the kopi gang plus mingyao b4 my enlist...went to marina for steamboat..can see everyone is not hungry n lazy,cos i dun think we ate or bbq alot,but spent more time takin & posing for pic instead...haha...as usual,yiwei is our cook again....frm bbq-ing for us to peeling prawn's shell...

.......and oso special thanks to my 'fathers' & 'mothers',who sacrifice their precious time to accompany me to tekong dat day...iniatially i had thoughts of going there alone...but upon reaching there,i really felt glad u guys are there wif me...

another great weekend i had...b4 i enlist next week...

2005-09-04T05:57:00.000+08:00

glad dat me and my bros had settled our differences today.....although its not a gd thing for us to be angry wif one another,however i guess we can learn from tis incident by avoiding similar problem dat we might encounter in future..

met up wif my kopi buddies today....one day being wif u guys really made my day,forgetting hw bored i am tis past week....as usual,have fun crappingz & disturbing the 'photogenic' serene (ur pic getting more and more pop,thanks to me rite)...'spy' yiwei (din put spyware cos will be cruel,as everyone hate spyware =x)....and our very SLIM & 'tall' wendy (though u cant grow taller,u really more slim liao,dun try to diet too much)....

anyway,the gers had to left early due to one being cinderella and the other 2 preparing for exam...leaving me,kenvin,guojing and cartoon,together wif enlong who joined us shortly after....i suggested to go geylang to eat our supper,as i nv taste the tian ji porridge b4...too bad,i cant find any car park slot and had to park somewhere further away...as the rest r too tired to walk,too bad...no chance for me to taste it...but out of curiosity,we went to SEE wat a big aquarium is like...haha

looking forward to friday...celebrating my last day as civilian b4 becoming servant of government....all the best to wendy & yiwei for their exam too...

gr8 weekend.....

2005-08-29T02:20:00.000+08:00

woke up v early in the morning on sat,as my father wants me to follow him down to his factory together wif my mum...to have some lunch organised over there...often visit his factory when im young...had been some time since i visit there cos i find there boring...but when i visited last sat and look at the surroundings...realise dat my dad really had work v hard for tis family...i cant wait to stop tis rotting & slacking life soon in order to allow him to retire n enjoy life early....

anyway,metup wif my poly mates...vernessa and kelvin to suntech....as im still not familiar wif the expressway route to town area...went to fetch vernessa up first as she led me the way to orchard by CTE..luckily she noe the way,or else we will be v late..after our dinner,we went to explanade...at first tot of sitting on the boat...but too bad we were abit late...so we took lots of pics instead...frm the merlion,the 'I WAS HERE' sign,those exhbition stuffs, to when im sending them home...still waiting for vernessa to send me those pics....anyway...gr8 day we had..still had lots of things to catch up wif each other...mayb like wat kelvin suggest,we shld go tp in the next gathering..miss biz park food?haha....

as for today....finally saw my latest cousin....my uncle's child's one month old...though she is still v young...cant stop pinching on her chubby cheeks...lol...took a pic of her b4 i left....

finally.......

2005-08-23T19:35:00.000+08:00

found shi xin hui's version of yi shi de mei hao.....her singing is really much better compared to kelly...too bad...

wat an excercise...

2005-08-19T03:08:00.000+08:00

went to tamp mall to get something...since the gang was suggesting abt jogging...decided to give kenvin a surprise visit...but in the end,a wrong turn and i headed to 800 plus to find guojing instead...haha...as usual,when i reach his hse,they still havent decide on anything yet.....so we decided to meet out first..

in the end...we din go jogging...but end out playing catching @ the playground instead...haha.....v long din play catching liao...run abit already out of breath ...lucky im not the catcher...but in the end i sprain my toe,n had to stop...wendy had succeeded in burning her calories...cos i think she ran the most today...while trying to catch kenvin & catched by yiwei....lolx.....

anyway...gd luck to yiwei for the tp tmr...den our kopi gang can go beyond tamp....heh...

lol...logic king @ his best...

2005-08-18T15:33:00.000+08:00

planning to go swimming and haircut on tues...too bad cartoon din go becos he still could not sleep when i call him....n like guojing mentioned in his blog,kenvin's officer gave him a surprise visit...

lol...kenvin logic king as usual...always worried for him for nothin...cos he surely will have his way out...still rem the ktv incident in our neighbour country??...lolx....now army stuff he oso can keng......

in the end,only left me and guojing to swim...actually going downtown east,but decide to go safra since he forgot to bring his stuff...entry fee quite exp there nvm...but like wat he said...seems like a gay club...nv seen a single babe....only an middleaged one and oso a super underage ger..anyway,dunno is i eat too full...swam few laps feel v out of breath liao...too long nv swim....sianzz...there goes the day....downtown east still the best......haha.....

yest la kopi....actually tot of going changi or pasir ris park after dat..but end up touring ard pongol for abt an hour?...but ok la,roughly noe hw to visit my friends or grandma when i wan to travel there again...

objective not met today....abit sian 1/'2 day

2005-08-16T03:40:00.000+08:00

today went roxy square wif cartoon,kenvin & guojing...actually sending my mother to yishun first...but dunno the road well,so drop her @ the 39 bus stop...after dat..went straight to find cartoon...while waiting for him,i park the car beside another car....while reversing,i concentrate on whether there is any incoming behind...to my horror,my car end up brushing against dat car...shit...was panick and went down to check gt anything anot...saw a few scratches...but not v obvious....few mins later..the owner came down....i tot he saw the incident,but in the end he juz drove the car away...phew...

anyway...thanks to them,who had very gd sense of direction...we are able to reach katong quite fast...but too bad,that salon is not open today...the other salons r close too,left only those AH NEH barber...so we feel abit pissed off we travel so far but we din met out objective...in the end went to eat katong laksa instead...@ least nv waste effort travelling down for dat delicious laksa..lol....after dat we went to east coast park without a clue wat we shld do next..end up toking cock instead....hope tmr will be a better day...no bad haircut...gd weather to swim ...& oso gonna see wild wild wet gt any bikini babes anot...haha

great sat....unexpected & unplanned activites..haa

2005-08-14T14:09:00.000+08:00

although the gathering wif my attachment mates r cancelled due to kelvin's confinement,its still a great sat for me....

met up wif kenvin,carrie and mingyao for lunch...has been a while since we LUNCH together...used to do dat v often last time....haa.....after dat i left for a while to be filial son...drive my mum to bedok...think she wan to 'inspect' my driving skill...lolx...but luckily so far so gd.....she din complain...only said i slow though...lolx...

anyway,after sending her i went back to tamp to look for them again...as we had nothin to do,they decided to help me practice my parking....my parking still sux....cos i only noe hw to park wif poles....muz wait for my dad to transfer some skills to me...after carrie and mingyao left for clubbing....me and kenvin waited for wendy,yiwei & serene...we went to kenvin's hse to put his 'smuggled goods' and oso played wif bam bam...and then there r so many funny stuffs happening..frm wendy stepping on bam bam & his revenge,the 3 gers squeezing in kenvin's hse toilet dunno do wat and den to tokin abt 'THE Crack'.......haha......after dat,went coffee bean to met up wif guojing,and cartoon joined us shortly after...again,when they arrive,the gers asked abt 'THE CRACK' question again.......lolx,buay tahan,esp when i see guo jing giving his usual serious & disgusted response on tis kinda issue...

as we tok cock 4 so long...suddenly everyone felt hungry....tired of always eating prata...think someone just casually suggested steamboat and in the end, we really did it..STEAMBOAT @ 3 AM...hahahaha....crazy but dats wat i like,being steady....not All Tok But No Action pple like a FAT ASS BASTARD i noe....as cartoon provide his hse,guo jing provide his 'dunno wat u call dat' thing....me,kenvin,serene,yiwei,wendy shopped for food....had a fun time @ his hse...watching the touching vids he made...and also eating the steamboat...

great day we had...la kopi gang.....looking forward to more interesting activites we had together yea.....hahaa

first time driving.........

2005-08-13T15:05:00.000+08:00

finally get to drive my dad's car....had been waiting for so long.....haha...first time no instructor beside me,i was abit panick and drive super slow and engine stalled for quite a few times on my way to find kenvin,cartoon and guojing...they comment and laugh me saying i slow and buay zai...haa...but its true la...im still getting use of the car's biting point and oso,feel v pressurized first time on the road...

1st destination was to bedok 85...for supper and oso lookin for the empty hse which pple said is haunted...too bad we cant find,so....we decided to go Old changi Hospital...as i drove pass those ah guas...guo jing said got one lift up 'HER' skirt and show 'HER' panty to him....LOLx...his disgusted response was always funny to watch...tried to be less serious bro...lol...anyway,we din go in OCH anyway,cos we tot no gers ard go in oso wont enjoy....no motivation?...haa...anyway....as its abt 4 am reaching 5...decided to drove to home....me and kenvin stayed @ guojing hse help him out wif his blog b4 leaving @ abt 6 in the morning.....

hhaa......finally passed.........

2005-08-12T19:25:00.000+08:00

thank god...my birthday wish had come true......i finally passed my driving.......lolx.....

din told anyone my driving test is today....cos had too many failure....always expect to pass but in the end disappoint everyone....today,i juz went in a relax mood...only took 2 revision cos dun have so much money liao oso....in the end,i realise dat its not the no. of pract,but its the actual performance dat matters most....most impt is dun be nervous...

did some superstitiuous stuff which i nv did b4 the test...last time all along wear spects and failed...yest..i purposely dun wear it to test my luck...and oso listen to mingyao's advice to buy mentos to freshen myself up & be calm....guess they really works....

anyway...was damn happy....tester is v gd today...as my test time is bus lane timing...heng heng he cut the route short becos of the heavy traffic and in the end nv go to the bus lane there....when he debrief and said i passed...was damn happy....saw gt few others passed and we began to chat as if we noe each other for yrs...everyone was like me,fail lots of times...almost gave up until today....and we agreed the testers today must have struck lottery....haha........

heyzz.........

2005-08-11T02:44:00.000+08:00

finally back....haha.....after seeing cartoon and guo jing setting up their blogs....i oso dun wanna be left out.....lolx...

anyway,for those who dunno......i'm finally gonna be enlisting on sept 10....next mth...lolx....time passed so fast...has rot for 1 yr 4 mths since graduate....juz pass my 23th birthday...getting older & older...no more time to waste liao.....haha.....

leeSer's belated birthday treat...

2005-05-30T03:04:00.000+08:00

met up wif my attachment mates last sat....while waiting for mrt,saw my ex gf,angela....had a chat wif her...actually had tried to search her in friendster b4,but cant find...den indirectly ask abt her love life....now almost all my exs are attached...who ask me nv treasured her when i had her in the 1st place...thinking back,she is the most chi xin towards me..thought dat one day if i met her again,i will tried to woo her again...too bad.....when i learn hw to love someone,i was not given a chance to...

anyway,went to a particular western restaurant @ clark quay for dinner wif charles,leeSer,ruiqiang,ck & his gf...plus its leeSer's birthday treat....the food there quite exp,average ard $20 plus per person...but quite nice la,the giant burger.....so generous our leeSer...thanks alot.....haha....got chance sure treat u back...next yr den sing birthday song for u,but rem sing for me in aug 7th...plus a birthday kiss ?...haha... =x ....

guys/gals.....next time when u wan to lend money to pple...one advice for u....better be prepare not to get back if u intend to lend...i trust a fucking ass clown despite my past experiences yet he keep betraying my trust....now its not the money dat im angry,its the way he has been treating me like a fool..wat a bastard...if i dun care of my future at all,i confirm will beat the hell out of dat fucking crybaby fat ass.....

unexpected things happening........

2005-05-28T18:39:00.000+08:00

think the entry dat kenvin wrote abt the chalet is quite detailed...dun need me to write liao...hah...but i really hope yongsoon kept his word abt sunday...i dun wan to resort into violence again......

anyway,yest met up wif kenvin and cartoon...as we din noe where to go,decide to cycle @ pasir ris park...after cycling towards the end,we decide to sit down @ fisherman village to tok cock and see babes (@ table nearby us)...

just den,saw a ger wearing a sch uniform walking past us....the time is 2 plus am and she is all alone,walking towards the beach....so we tot whether to approach her anot,and decide whoever lose go and approach her first...as cartoon lose (me and kenvin cheat =x)...he went and tok to her to find out if she had any prob...after a while me and kenvin also went up to find out wats wrong wif her...iniatially she wanted to be all alone,but in the end,decided to told us her relationship problem...

anyway,nothing dramatic happen after dat,as we share wif her our past experience....though i guess she will only listen but wont act on our advices...cos love is blind....so we accompany her till 5 plus for the first mrt/bus to come.....after she left,kenvin said mayb it is god who created the fate for us to met her when she had trouble....cant imagine if it is not us who r there but some other bad guys instead......haha

wat an experience..singapore is still the best....

2005-05-13T04:21:00.000+08:00

went malaysia wif kenvin & cartoon on tues...an out of sudden trip...@ first tot of just going there to eat,shop and return @ nite...in the end,the cheap stuffs over there tempt us to stay there....

during the 1st day,we felt like king...keep commenting on hw cheap the food and entertainment is over there...esp the cigarettes...also feel like going there once or twice a week....but after a series of incident on the 2nd day...we den realise singapore is still the best....

b4 coming to malaysia,kenvin keep telling us abt the robbers there...making us feel paranoid...we tot of leaving our valuable stuff in cartoon hse...but in the end felt that we shld not be so 'hum'...however,unexpectedly,just when we are abt to left jb...this kind of thing really happen to us...2 lao pai kias came to us and said that we look like someone who hacked their bros...ask us to go somewhere just for identification...as we really dunno the place well,we didnt resist,nor try to run away in case one of us really get caught...

just when they brought us to somewhere quite a distance frm the shopping centre...another of their friend joined in....though i nv notice,kenvin said he had a screw driver @ his pocket...so they brought us to a cafe,tell us hw their bros gt beaten....den they ask us to show them whether we gt tattoo in our arms anot...cos the culprit had...of cos none of us had it....after dat,their real motive revealed...they asked us whether we can contribute money for their bros hospital fees...also,their attitude & action become more aggressive...as we r in their 'territory' plus they might bring in more pple...we had no choice but to give in to them...but they r not satisfied wif the amt,and ask whether we can raise $3000 frm credit card...of cos we cant...so they had no choice but ask us to hand over our hp (exclude our sim card)...after this,i was wondering wats next...will they search our bag for other valuable stuff?...was worried for my ipod...lol...but luckily...they let us off after dat,and even ask us to come back 3 days later in jb to collect back our hp...dun think they will be so gd rite?..if we come back sure will be cheated more of our money....

anyway,unlucky things dun end there...when we take a cab back to the customs...a dunno wat fuck officer caught kenvin throwing cigarette butt...and fine him 50 dollar ringgit...as we tried to persuade them to drop the case,after we r robbed from the earlier incident...they give various reasons,from asking him to pay the fine today to 1 week later...or even 1 mth later...as its really a waste of time argueing...we decided to leave....

when we reach sg custom,we tot our nitemares can finally end...too bad,its not...we forgt to chop our passport in the malaysian customs when we depart...so we had to return back malaysia to chop our passport....

how unlucky can 11/5/2005 is...will nv forget this day....but really had to thank god,as we return in one piece,our passport and ic are not stolen,our sim card is still wif us...

unofficial chalet.......& also real chalet on May.........

2005-04-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

finally book the chalet wif kenvin liao...will be on next mth may 24th-26th...like wat kenvin always said,babes are most welcomed =D ..jk...

anyway,finally had a gd 10 hr of sleep today...went to a 2 day 1 nite 'chalet' (@ yong soon's hse) wif kenvin,guo jing,cartoon,esther ... last few days i spent is really a slacker's lifestyle...fun,lame,unhealthy,rotting etc....din expect i will stay out of home for few days,life so unpredictable rite....everything seems to be last min planning 4 us...

went to ktv,supper in 85,and den rot @ a playground nearby tamp 811 on the first day...tot will be going home when it reach morning until esther suggest going to someone's hse...so we check in the 'chalet' from wed morn till today morning...as a result,cartoon & yong soon skip work,and i skip my driving lesson...going to ys hse and seeing cartoon & esther together reminded me of some memories not long ago....i thought of her & realise i miss her...however like they said i shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu...there is no reason for me to feel sad over unneccesary things... =D

also me & kenvin finally went to make our spectacles @ cartoon's former work place...unexpectedly we ended up having a fun time taking pic & playing wif a little ger there...cute rite? notice she only hug kenvin?...haha...

mingyao's class chalet....

2005-04-18T22:09:00.000+08:00

another enjoyable weekend spent in a chalet....thanks to mingyao...as usual,the major shareholder in everything....

will we be able to book our own chalet in may?...better make it quick bros....i am looking forward to june 23...so dat one of my last 2 wish list will be fulfiled....

unhealthy & happening week...lolx

2005-04-16T18:02:00.000+08:00

yest is officially my last day in IBM...wonder shld find another job anot....juz hope dat my manager can give me a positive ans on another position,frm DBS...

its so coincidence dat the last three days when im my way home,someone is bound to call me asking me where am i...yongsoon on wed and thurs,and yest cartoon ask me wanna go down MU cafe(?) to look for adelaine (and oso esther),who just started work yest...although we had so many difficulties reaching there,taking the wrong bus,alighting @ the wrong place,i am still happy cos i get to see her...sang a few songs...."ni ai wo ma?","In love with you (get to hear her lovely voice..haha","xin ru dao ge" etc...all really can describe my feelings? =x @ the same time,me and cartoon oso smoke and smoke....the viceroy we just bought,plus a few of my marlboro all finish up in just one nite...v jialat...plus our burbon coke...further damage our health....lol..

went back to tamp @ ard 4 am...dunno where to go,so we decide to go to their hse nearby...(3 of them living in tamp 800 plus...i am the odd one out,always kena suan becos of dat sia )... after rotting there a while,everyone decide to go off....i went to cartoon's hse instead...had a tok wif him b4 we slept....thanks to him,he help me understand lots of things dat i shld or shld not do....i oso realise i tried to make things happen too quickly,esp me and her only noe each other for 1 week (yest)...i dunno wats gonna happen in the end...just be happy ba...watever happen,i noe i still have my brothers with me....

happening week....

2005-04-13T02:13:00.000+08:00

had a few sleepless nite for the past few days...had lots of fun as we went to cartoon's chalet....during the 1st nite,so many of them had vomited due to drinking too much alcohol...luckily i drank as little as possible..so nothin happens to me...lolx...plays lots of lame but fun poker games,went swimming in the early morning,sharing ghost stories...this is one of the most enjoyable chalets i went to in recent yrs...thanks to cartoon,cos we are able to 'create havoc',having enuff beds to sleep in etc

get to noe several new friends frm this chalet too...E.t,konnie,jace,and of cos adelaine...though adelaine arrives late,she is the one who caught my attention...she is a v friendly & attractive ger...though she likes to take pic of herself alot aka zi lian kuan?hhaa,i find dat she is very cute in many ways..like she refuse to wake up no matter how we 'torture her',the funny moments we had while teaching her swimming, and also the times when she is being tease by us......with so many gd things i mentioned,its quite obvious that i had a crush for her...

after the chalet had ended...i was wondering when will i have the chance to see her again...though i had her num,i do not dare to sms or call her...thanks to cartoon again,who jio us to fisherman village to drink,as he told me dat she will be there too...i was damn happy cos i nv expect to see her so fast again...@ first when i saw her,i suddenly become speechless,as i dunno wat to tok to her...when cartoon suggested playing 'cai quan',we started to tok more....i try to help her drink if possible,cos i do not hope to see her drunk...on the other hand,i had to drink cos of the numerous time i lost,so i became abit drunk...thank god i am drunk though,as i had the courage to reveal my feelings for her..den i do lots of stupid stuff,confessing my love for her,calling her lao po in front of everyone,holding her hands,and suddenly lost control of myself,as i was thinking dat whether god had finally ended my wait for my dream ger...but on the other hand,i noe right frm the start dat we will have difficulties being together,as there r really lots of differences btw us...and i noe dat there r so many guys who r better den me trying to woo her now...

thank god it doent end after we left fisherman village...as jace had come down to tamp last min and the rest are going off,adel decide to stay instead of going home as jace had just came down...so we decide to go yong soon's hse...by that time,i had become more sobber...i am happy to noe that i will have more time to spend wif her....so we stayed at his hse playing PS2 from morning till afternoon....the gers are still energetic while me and yongsoon took turn to sleep...hhaa....

too bad happy times past really fast...As i sent her home,i was thinking again when will i be able to see her again?....i dunno whether we will end up together,but all i noe is dat i will always remember and treasure the wonderful times we had during this short period of time....

wat a dream

2005-03-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

hah...yest dreamt dat i had a gf...and the ger is.......chen songling...lolx...sounds funny but its true...but juz a dream only...no wonder this morning i overslept and woke up at 9.30....lol....how cum could turn out to be her?....mayb cos i told a few of my friends i abit like chew chor ming in the 9pm show...very neow on certain things..esp on food or entertainment stuff like clubbing,ice skate,movie etc....cos i really hate spending money on things dat i cant see....

however,recently i spent alot on hardware stuff....really dun mind spending on them,cos those r things dat i CAN see and use for a while...haha...diff pple diff concepts...anyway,i think i gonna spent on another 'fixed asset' again....ipod mini had drop from 458 to 348...dun buy really dui bu qi zhi ji...wait so long liao,though i din expect the price to drop so much.....hopefully this will be my last major spending...

gathering...

2005-03-07T01:45:00.000+08:00

had a gathering wif my yr 1 project mates on sat...though its only me,kelvin,monica & vernessa,i am v happy to see them again....kelvin is in NS now,and like any army guy,told us abt his army stories...esp his encounter wif .... though Vernessa looks more fashionable now,(esp wif her purple hair)...however her cute 'auntie' behavior had not changed...haha..she is still the most reliable & helpful person i ever known.....as for monica,we go to work together everyday...still must say she had changed too...not like last time always bully by me..now she noe how to suan back pple liao sia..lolx...

as me & vernessa brought our cam along...we decided to find a place to take pictures after our dinner...so i suggest we go sun plaza park...where there r fewer pple,we wont be pai seh...lolx....we stayed there till ard 11 plus & den kelvin send us home....really glad to see them again,and hope dat in future,like wat kelvin said,the next gathering will be in malaysia...haha

us

lolx...its getting more and more funny...

2005-03-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

as some of u noe,i always said dat my manager is v gd..but of cos,no one is perfect...one thing bad abt him is he is super kiasee..this week really buay tahan...

last time i see many pple in company listen music while working...and quite a no. i noe uses msn too...& their supervisor din said anything...but when i listen...my manager ask me not to listen....not dat he was not happy,he said that he scare wait got pple saw liao complain that his temp staff listen music and not working....haha...ok dats fine...few days ago,me and evelyn took the company shuttle bus to simei for lunch...as she wanted to shop for things,we miss the 1pm and 1.15pm bus...so we reach company @ 1.45 like dat(suppose to be 1 hour lunch)..my manager din said anything....juz dat when i return to my com,i saw his email...its the 1st time i sense that he is not happy...though he nv raised his voice or scold me b4,the tone of tis email seem quite seirous...haha..firstly,he said i shld not stayed out till so late for lunch...and oso said that he dun wan evelyn's supervisor to complain that his temp staff (me) influence her to stay out till so late..lastly,he ask me not to go out eat anymore,eat @ the nearby food court instead(it sux)...pengz...dunno wat to say...the company provide shuttle bus is for employees to go out lor...though i must admit its my fault for staying out late,i really feel tired of eating in the nearby foodcourt...anyway,told him dat i will still go outside for lunch...and promise him will not be later like dat day liao...

today even more funnier...while doing some stuff,i shifted my chair near to evelyn cos my desk area really lots of things....though i was clearly doing my work,happened dat he saw we 2 toking...after dat,he told me dun go near evelyn,wait her supervisor tot i disturbing her...whahaha....i dun feel angry,i LOL in front of him.....

however despite all this funny stuff,i still feel this company has a v gd working environment....flexible and relaxed....it oso make me realised dat there r many opportunties outside,signing on is not the only option...really hope when i finish my NS,i can work here again...of cos,under a more relax manager...haha

so fast....

2005-02-26T11:53:00.000+08:00

had been working for abt one mth liao...wonder hw last time i can chiong OT till 10 plus every nite...nowadays only stay till 7 or 8 den wanna go off liao...dunno y...mayb becos i am feeling tired...or becos i dun have much motivation to earn $$ liao...see my wanted list,the 2 thing i wanted most now cant be bought by money.... =|

anyway,me 'keng' unsuccessfully...received my pes status recently and k3na PES B....no diff frm A...yest met up wif kelvin shaowei & ruiqiang...as usual,other den army stuffs, i dun think we tok abt other topics...lolx....but nvm la,din feel left out,cos they keep giving me advice....suppose to enlist wif them last yr,yet i still havent go in...even enlistment date oso dunno...but i guess most prob april ba...

b4 meeting them,went wif kenvin enlong they all to stephen's hse...to be honest,i dunno all those saboing stuff...tot juz went there to celebrate,din noe they got so many surprises and sabo plans for him...though feeling abit weird,tot of staying awhile but too bad kelvin on the way to meet me liao...anyway happy 23th birthday to u stephen~..

back to work.......

2005-02-03T22:43:00.000+08:00

praise the lord...i found a job again...actually shld said returning back to my previous job in IBM...guess wat,i had been searching newspaper for jobs for the last 2 weeks,going thru 5-6 interviews...den one day i receive a call...its not one of these companies,but instead its my former manager who asked me whether i am available to work...haha...its funny dat those mediocre jobs din call me up(actually got 2 called after i returned to work,too bad) but in the end i gt a better job...

great things din stop there...as some of u noe i was quite a loner in company last time,cos in my dept only me and my manager...i had no colleagues,no one to crap with,no one to go lunch wif(except occasionally monica)...however this time round,i am not alone anymore...happens that there r some attachment students in the company...and i got to noe 2 of them-rebecca & evelyn...though they r in HR Dept,but their desk is v near me...however,i guess if evelyn did not break the ice & tok to me,i guess everything will remain unchanged....& when she ask me wanna go lunch wif them,i was v happy...cos i noe life in company will nv be boring again...there will be pple to crap ard with,having lunch with,going home with...thank god for everything,greatful for the friends i made,and also the wonderful job i had...

good day

2005-01-16T04:13:00.000+08:00

man utd win lousypool....arsenal lose to bolton... =D ... after their service,jimmy called me and we had a talk...i noe everyone of u had gd intentions,but sometimes i really gt the feeling dat my life is being 'controlled'..the more u all try to help me,the more i feel pressurise..so i hope u all juz leave me on my own and let me make my own decisions...

anyway.yest yongsoon birthday...go wif guojing & kenvin to fisherman village as yongsoon treat us drink beer...i realise my $90 'investment' on a front & back suspension bicycle is really worth it...these few weeks,we often come out late nite la kopi...allow me to meet them when there is no bus available...also dunno save me hw much on ezlink...adult fare damn exp...

i dunno when my NS will be..and seeing my dad still working 2 job...i think i shld start looking for a job soon,starting on mon...

dragged again...

2005-01-13T18:12:00.000+08:00

went cmpb for medical review today...in order to prevent nothin happen,they took x ray of my back...so,they give me another 1 month rest,cos they wanna examine the x ray and decide which pes they will put me in....a v gd news for me,bad news for my mother,who cant wait to see me go in NS (cos she dun wan me slack @ home)..lol...

recently i met quite a no. of old friends from my batch(sat met 2,today met 2 more..so coincidence)...first question they ask me is abt my NS...and everyone of them had oRD,only left me keep 'escaping' from army..haha...tokin abt escaping...first escape was when i fail my O level...i defered it to study for private O...2nd time was when i failed my Nafa test,and suppose to enlist in Aug last yr..but in the end i pass(thanks to my friend's help =x),den was due to enlist in oct batch instead...suddenly i had a back injury,and was given 3 mths rest twice...now was given another 1 more mth PES D....if only this could go on forever..

2005-01-03T04:53:00.000+08:00

had been abt 1 mth since i last blog...dunno y,mayb i 三分钟热度,now no interest to blog oso...anyway,recently i am back to my insomnia days,sleeping @ 6 or 7 am again -_-" ..either play my ps2 or surf net...thinkin of going NS soon,i guess it shld be alrite ba...

anyway,we finally had our cell grp thanksgiving yest..to be honest,i dun really look forward for it,cos its been delayed for almost a week,feel dat wont have the 'christmas mood' oso...even had the evil intention of skipping it cos i slept @ 8 plus am dat day(cant get to sleep..but im glad i din follow my evil thoughts,lol..think its been a success...we had great time fellowshipping,enjoying great food(esp rebecca's mud pie) & i also got the present i wanted most (adidas water bottle) ....

however, wat an embarrasment for me though,cos i almost broke to tears when i was sharing wif everyone my thanksgiving speech...i dunno y i feel so emotional suddenly,mayb i feel really guilty dat god had done so much wonder for me ever since i became a christian,yet i backslided so much,lost interest,not satisfied & having doubts over so many things...sometimes i really hope to renew my mind,get rid of my negative mindset,but its juz so difficult..its easy to say but difficult to implement..

anyway,dun wish to worry so much oso,juz take one step @ a time...since 92 percent of our worries r unreal,only 8 percent will happen....like wat leeSer told me once,life is short,y worry so much....enjoy while u can (if u r reading tis,use tis for urself too ba =p)

......

2004-12-04T15:38:00.000+08:00

had been quite a few weeks nv blog....feel dat i seem to have backslided ever since i was baptised...how ironic rite..i seem to have lost abit of my faith,and oso losing interest in doing lots of things.....i know this period of time is a test for me...i juz hope i can rediscover my faith & passion soon...

anyway,i started serving my ministry on thursday-dat is helping out in children church! as i sign up as a visitation helper,i am required to visit the childrens' hse weekly to talk to them,bond wif them and also encourage them to come church regularly...together wif eugene and irene,my new friends....we visit abt 6-8 hses...if i nv rem wrongly,they r joseph,marcel,hillary,nathaniel,jonathan,cassandra etc haha....forgt 2 other name,but still rem their cute faces...haha...the youngest r 4,and the oldest is 10..and i become a teacher,cos they r suppose to address us as teacher...lol..its a v gd experience for me...and i cant wait to meet them again next week...

youth event....

2004-11-16T17:17:00.000+08:00

still feeling abit weak frm sun's rain...but thank god its not serious,or else i wont be able to participate in helping out the youth event(UNLEASH) & bbq yesterday...hah...u noe,i am always the participator,not the judge or watever,so yest is a nice day for me(though i tired out v easily due to the sunny weather & also nt feeling 100% dat day)...esp the segment when we torture those sec/pri sch bros by splashing water on them...in the end get to play soccer too...lolx...but i guess the best part is the bbq ba,cos like our cell grp,the rest of them finish off the food v fast...though i had a sore throat,i dun care much abt it and eat as much as possible,cos i seldom get to go bbq nowadays...poor kenvin & guojing though,always late in 'snatching' those food b4 they r 'snatch' by others...

anyway,went tamp polyclinic for health screening survey today...process took abt 2 hour plus...nothin unusual,they check my blood pressure,took my blood test,height,weight,survey etc...to my surprise,they give me $10 ntuc fairprice voucher and a cute mug after i finish the whole process..haha..thank god,tis sun's refreshment i dun have to spent money liao,can use that voucher instead =D

last day of work

2004-11-14T22:37:00.000+08:00

yest is my last day working...time flies v fast...i needed a rest badly,but at the same time will be worrying wat i gonna do till jan...my manager told me he is still waiting for approval to extend me from adecco...not sure,see how it goes ba...

anyway i guess its a gd time to leave my job currently,or else my feelings for her will not fade ...i had a crush wif tis ger...i din noe her recently,in fact she is my yr 1 classmate & now working in same company wif me...its either by coincident or fate, we r in the same primary,same sec,same poly & class,same church,and now working in the same company...but hw cum i now den had a crush for her?...guess going to work everyday makes me noe her better,discover her cuter side,her 'noiser' side (she usually quiet when in grp)..i dun wan to pop out the question,cos i fear our friendship will nv be the same again...plus she is spritually v strong,and i believe she will only wait for the right guy to come...(duno hw many guys she rejected in sec sch and poly)..to leave tis company @ tis time b4 i develope a stronger feeling for her,i believe god is hinting me we r not meant to be together..i had promise her i will do a blog for her,but im wondering whether shld i pass the address to her now,cos she will noe my blog add and read wat im writing now...haha..anyway,if u happen to read tis,juz wanna say my feelings 4 u had faded each day...dats the gr8 thing when u believe in christ,ur life is filled with so much blessing,excitement,busy-ness that u wont worry unneccessary thing so much..... =D

anyway,went to both service today & yest in indoor stadium...there r so many pple (10000 plus) for each service and having a gd seat is a problem if wan to see clearly...we din have the fortune yest as we r only manage to sit at the seat facing the backstage....plus cartoon & cherish was trapped outside and cant get in due to the packed stadium...feel sorry for cartoon,come early but in the end had to miss it...anyway,due to the sounding and unclear view,i fell asleep twice b4 kenvin call me up...haha...lucky no new friends ard,or else will set a bad eg.

thank god today is much better...thanks to jimmy brandon kenvin cherish,we r able to sit @ the '$100 or $200' seat...not only r we able to see the stage clearly,we r oso able to see the great atmostphere in the stadium clearly...congrats to sis yalan for graduating the pastor course..praise the lord....

another 'birthday' for me...

2004-11-10T01:33:00.000+08:00

sat,6 oct 2004 will be another memorable and impt day of my life...was water baptize by pastor tan...really feel like it was my birthday....congratualated by everyone,receive meaningful presents(photoframe wif our pic & the word of god,a towel wif candlewax? words on it),and oso a big 'birthday card' with our cell grp's bro & sis....though we 3 brothers (kenvin & guojing) may not have the same birthday,glad dat we r baptize together on the same day...haha..god had done so many great things within tis small period of time for me,i pray that i will continue to growth spiritually each day and stay commited & devoted to him.....

guess wat,i almost had to go back on that dat after service cos again,i havent complete my work b4 i left office...thank god,my manager msg me and told me to come back next day...haha...surprise he noe hw to sms....when we left the bus,we left all our presents in the bus (cos our presents r in a paperbag)...thank god caylin's friend is still in the bus or else our cell grp members efforts are wasted...god is great....praise the lord!

frustrated & fedup yest....

2004-11-01T01:35:00.000+08:00

after church service,went back to office @ 11 plus pm to finish up my report,which my manager need it for next day's meeting......tot i can finish off within 1-2 hour,but the stupid computer system plus the excel file is so large dat it load until v slow...the worst thing is when i tot i had finish,the file corrupt and i din save a backup...i had to do all over again...by that time is 2 plus...i was feeling fed up and frustrated,and kick the table,shout in anger...lolx...(so late @ nite,no one is ard so its ok...haha)...
so i msg bro stephen and told him i might not be able to attend cell grp,cos i really duno hw long i can finish since i had to start all over again,plus u all shld noe when u r sleepy,u wont be efficient..no choice but still want to complete my work cos i dun wan to land my manager in a difficult spot,so no matter hw tired,hw slow the system & file is,i continue to do it...by the time i finish abt 7 plus AM...
in the end,too tired to attend cell grp..feels guilty,miss it for the first time,and i hope it will be the last too....anyway,my mood feels better now...will be slowly counting down to sat,my (and oso kenvin & guojing)'s big day...haha

=)

2004-10-25T04:46:00.000+08:00

juz back from home...OT till 3.30 AM sia..haah...tired,but no choice,cos need to submit those reports to auditors tmr morning...sudden tot of poly days,when we piang our project & next morning is the deadline...the only diff is i am paid to finish my 'project'...haha...

thank god,i feel like having the best manager of the world..imagine a manager who don't scold u @ all for the mistakes u make,or nv scold u for dozing off while working...or also nv failed to brought u food to eat everyday...hw lucky i am....he is a living example for me to follow wat i learn during bible studies - being a giver....

today cell grp having outing...actually they r going to east coast park,too bad i cant join them,cos as i mentioned earlier,had to rush the report today....however due to the bad weather,they decided to go bro stephen's hse instead...haha..as its near my work place,decide to go for a while,to EAT & fellowship...haha (in the end drag until 1 hr plus den go to work....(thank god again,my manager nv said anything..haha)....although we had lots of food,unsurprisingly,we manage to finish them up....haha...hopefully next outing i will be free,and oso not leaving halfway..cos i juz hate to be left out of those funz...haa

free for @ least 3 more months...

2004-10-16T01:08:00.000+08:00

took mrt to cmpb on wed...when i board the train i notice a ger keep on looking @ me....i look back @ her for a sec b4 turing away...but she continue looking and smiling....i took a longer look again den realise shes jestina...hha...change so much cant recognise her sia,look more and more like li xin jie also....*tot i gt so much charm =x ... had a gd chat wif her...gd of her to leave behind a good seat for me(cos she sit in btw 2 young working babes =x)....

anyway,main topic..went to cmpb to find out my enlistment date...the doc said i seems to recovered,and told me am i confident to enlist now anot,cos i will only downgrade to pes b,dats no diff frm pes A,v siong 1...he said if not,den he give me another 3 more months of rest,b4 going back cmpb for review again...hha...of cos i said not ready la...lol...still gt so many things havent done..bible studies havent complete,havent earn enuff money,havent trained up..and oso can celebrate christmas for first time wif cell grp bro & sis...haha...thank god for giving me another few more months of freedom =D

last time keep complain dat i had too much time to rot,but now my one week is so packed dat i dun have any day to rot @ home..thank god...bro stephen used to msg me asking me hws my week,and i will always reply him boring...he told me life wif jesus is nv boring...i am v much convince now...lol..anyway dat day oso happen to be carrie's birthday...the best day of this week liao....

cool...

2004-10-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

check tis up =D

touched by god

2004-10-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

in today's cellgroup,bro stephen was toking abt the topic "walking with god" i was deeply inspired by his message,as he gave lots of meaningful analogy,esp the highway & 'blackout'..and when he gave autocall to pray for those who wants to live & guided by the lord,and not living in a life full of 'blackouts'...i raise by hand...as bro stephen prayed for me,i duno y but my tears juz flow down continuously....i can sense god's presence,and he had touched me...now i finally understand hw come pple shed tears when they r being prayed..

ever since being a christian once again,my life has been blessed...many of u guys shld noe....i was knocked by a car but yet i suffered only a minor injury(compare to many cases)...i no longer feel negative in my life anymore,in tis cell grp i finally found something which i desperately crave for in my life-pple who really care & share joy wif me...i no longer rots @ home,i learn hw to go out more even if it is me one person going (swimming)...the message which left me with the greatest impression in my mind is 'loving urself',from my ex cell grp leader,SIS WanEE...after that msg,i learn hw to treaure & love myself more,which thus increase my self esteem..which is very low last time....plus as u guys noe,despite so many failed attempts in finding a job,god has actually reserve the BEST one for me(gd pay,gd manager)...there r in fact endless things i can thank god for....there is one person who i shld thank besides god is kenvin...(not hitting ur horse butt,but after reading the above msg,u shld noe i mean it la..haha...)..if u did not invite me to church dat day,i believe i am still living a life full of negativity...

lord,i noe i had not been faithful to u...but i pray dat i can growth more spiritually in order to walk wif u & also serve u...

to my friends,(esp mingyao),i sincerely hope dat u will follow us to church one day...dun give up or condemn urself,give urself & god a chance to change ur life for the better....

lastly,happy birthday to mingyao...i hope all ur wish will come true...god will bless u!!

tired but happy...

2004-10-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

after 'resting' for so many months...i finally found a job...ironically,it begins ard my previous enlistment date(which is today)...haha

started working in IBM tis week...really a dream job for me...gd pay,manageable job duties & most impt,working under a super gd manager...he is v flexible,allowing me to leave early for bible study & church services,plus oso allow me to come work after my cell grp meeting...@ the begining still worry he wont allow me to leave or come late for cell grp & bible studies,thank god i can attend all of them...haha...

anyway,really glad to hear dat guo jing had discharge frm hospital...rest well bro...

glad everyone is doing fine....

2004-09-26T15:12:00.000+08:00

met up wif my attachment mates on friday...tot finally tis time everyone is able to make it,but in the end still not full attendance....@ first we meet in orchard,where i saw zhixiong in the mrt...haha..den tot might bump into mingyao & layleng but we ended up goin serangoon(chomp chomp )there eat instead...so no chance to catch them red handed =p

though we had more pple coming compare to last month's gathering,to be honest,i feel its more quieter...wanna tok to those i havent seen for a long time,but duno wat to tok...becos of our seating,oso v difficult la...haha...after almost half of the peeps left,leaving me,leeser,shaowei,yiyin & weisze,den i can feel the 'greenbook days' again...haha...share wif shaowei & yiyin how i become a christian,& how god had changed my life during tis few mths...really hope one of them(esp leeSer,among them probably only u r reading tis journal...haha) will follow me to church one day.....as usual,i brought my cam along...earlier they comment dat i had become darker...after taking those pics,i den realise dat i am indeed v tanned...last time weisze & leeSer is more darker den me sia..haha..

me & shaowei

me & the gals

weisze me & leeSer

finally....thank god...

2004-09-24T14:09:00.000+08:00

thks to my mum's nagging,finally went back to tp wif guojing to collect back my cert yest...only the both of us yest,cos kenvin high fever sia...after dat,we went downtown east as usual,suntanned,see babes,swim.... =D~~

i dunno whether its too late...today adecco called me & ask me whether i am still available to work in IBM anot..i was surprise dat after so long dun have the news they call back again...so finally i had a job??....

really wanna thank god for blessing me wif tis opportunity...although i am abit unsure abt the job cos i'm still not sure when is my enlistment date,and im also not sure abt the hours i had to work on weekends (need to attend cell grp & service)...tues going there & tok to the manager again ba...no harm even if i cant work...thank god,i really need a job badly....has been spending alot recently(esp on farecards) plus i need $$ to book for my next tp....anyway,glad dat monica works there too..can meet her up and go work together...heh

funny...

2004-09-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

recently like sudden found back my ex greenview sec schmates...marcus,desmond,weisheng...den oso tis ger call jaslyn...anyone watch last week's channel 8 jean yip show?..the ger who own a clothing shop..haha...din noe she is my ex schmate cos she changed so much...den when i went to a forum (whom she was a member there & they discuss abt her)...den i realise she is frm my batch 1..last time in school i noe who she is & she noe who i am,but we nv tok 1...funny after leaving sch for so many yrs den we become friends...lolx...

today receive a letter from traffic police again...think some of u duno,i kena fined for $20 for jaywalking....but hOr,today's letter is the police informing me dat the driver will kena $200 fine & oso dock 6 demerit point...abit ke lian la,cos its me who is careless...but on the other hand,he nv bring me go hospital & tot he can go scot free...haha....lucky some passers by jot down his car number for me..justice is done =x

today

2004-09-19T01:18:00.000+08:00

first time went to 2 church service,the 4.30 & 7.30 one...together wif guojing & kenvin,we accompany peiqi to the earlier one cos she cant go home too late...but its okie cos both service r diff...both pastor aries & pastor tan preach diff topics,but r rather interesting...anyway,learn a new praise song today-Running After You...nice...gona put in my blog soon....haA

anyway,after church service went to kenvin's hse to see his dog...wow,a nice & obedient dog which is v well trained...i think he had been wanting a dog ever since i noe him,now out of sudden he is blessed wif one....haha...tmr i guess ur testimony is abt tis doggie ba...haha...

dog

hmm

2004-09-18T00:42:00.000+08:00

today big news,mediacorp & sph merge...haha...last time used to hate channel U,felt they r a channel full of ungrateful pples....i support local drams...now mediacorp bought over the company,wonder how those ex channel 8 stars who cross over feel...hmm..... =D

my face's skin peel until duno like wat liao...tmr duno still going sentosa anot....still waiting for their updates...hmmm....

burnt...

2004-09-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

long time nv tanned till so pain liao...haa²...actually going sentosa today,but due to v few pple going,me kenvin & guojing & yongshun(?) decide to go downtown east instead...weather is unpredictable...one min it is sunny,another min its rainy...but heng when we reach there able to tanned abt 2 hour plus...den rain....hide inside toilet a while wait for rain to stop...take some pics in there while waiting...haa²

trio

after waiting for 20-30 min...rain stop...we continue go swim,relax etc...now pain all over body...wonder thurs still wanna go anot...haa~

=D

2004-09-12T22:02:00.000+08:00

nothin to update actually...

anyway,can officially say my rotting days r over...though i did not find any job...tis few weeks is more 'colourful' to me...no longer staying @ home all day surfing net,eat,sleep etc....at least make it a point to go swimming thrice a week....enjoy swimming,get to train my stamina,able to excercise,able to see bikini babes (frm wild wild wets & occasionally frm the pool,heh) and also able to tanned there....though i still hope i can have the determination to start my jogging.....next week gonna start my bible class too,looking forward to it...so bye bye to my rotting days?...haa!

anyway,today's cell grp get to share testimony wif fiona...though we always meet up to come cell grp together,think its the first time i spoke to her more den 10 words @ one time....haha...my testimony v simple,i thank god dat today everyone is able to wake up when i called them,not like last time when i prepared everything ready to leave cell grp liao they still haven woke up...hah....lastly,long time nv cycle....cycle kenvin's bicycle home....gr8....save my $0.63 plus able to excercise abit..haa²...

lastly,happy birthday to maggie.... =D

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2004-09-07T15:53:00.000+08:00

yest went jurong east wif guo jing for dat job...filled in application form liao the person in charge drive his van and bring us(together wif other applicants) to their company...den when reached there,he ask me & guojing & a couple of ladies to one corner..explain to us hw we can go back to jurong mrt after the interview...den he asked me & guojing where we live...we told them tamp/pasir ris,den sudden his face change...i guess he feel we live too far ba,den asked us to go home first wait for his call...normally pple said tis kinda things normally wont call back 1....see how it goes ba...me & guojing feel abit fed up,but wonder y we can controlled our temper..maybe we dun have gd feelings for the job?...anyway,he suggest go shop ard buy something so dat the long journey to jurong will not be wasted...lol...

after the long way back to tamp,go meet kenvin & his bro....intending to go swimming again....tis time his bro is ard...teach him hw to swim...he remind me of myself when i was young...duno hw to swim and was disturb by a few elder 'kor kors'...suan him other younger gers r laughing in order to motivate him...hah....but thank god i finally noe hw to swim @ 18,thks to my friends too....though i really pray that my stamina can improve alot better =D

touched...

2004-09-06T01:15:00.000+08:00

wanna share wif u guys abt today's cell grp meeting i had...it was great, me 1st time sharing testimony wif everyone...i really thank god for helping me during tis period,blessing me wif opportunities i really needed to overcome my current situation...

noe wat,few days ago one of my poly friend,yasmin foned me out of sudden asking me whether i am interested in a temp job in IBM...she is not my close friend,we dun even contact...yet out of sudden she called me & intro me a job...hah...although i am not recruited(think other candidates better den me ba..heh)...god blessed me wif another opportunity juz 1 day later...wif the help of bro stephen & sis wan ee,they had found me a job which i will have an interview tmr...although not confirm can work...i really appreciate their kindness,and really greatful of their help...after dat,bro stephen & the rest prayed for me...noe wat,i was touched and theres abit of tears in my eyes,but of cos i am able to hold it la..heh...thank you guys....thank god for making everything possible...

anyway,like wat cherish mentioned in her blog,today's refreshment v funny...she said we dragon sia,cos we ate up those food v fast...lol...1 moment is funny,i saw bro stephen & jimmy toking away while we almost finish up the food...when enlong told them the food is finishing soon,they faster rush...haa²...yeah,team genesis won...heng cos all those we memorise come out....haha....fun day....thanks god,u brighten up my life....

guilty...hope today will be a new start...

2004-09-03T14:52:00.000+08:00

went swimming wif kenvin...had a chat wif him in bus...we were toking abt our family matters...of cos,tis week is a negative week...not entirely becos of dat problem which everyone noes...i am more concerned abt my family matters.....

my heart really pains to see my father working so hard to support tis family...his business is failing,so starting frm tis week,he had to drive taxi frm the evening to 2-3am....he wont have much rest,as he can only sleep for few hours,after dat he had to return to his factory again....

i realise dat circumstances had changed...i can no longer afford to rot @ home,wasting time surfing net all day long(which increase the electric bill) or asking them to give me pocket money as often as b4...its easy to said dat i want to be sensible,but i juz could not carried out wat i hope to be....i still switch on the computer till v late @ nite...till now i still lazy to find part time jobs....i am still as lazy as ever,lazy to help out in household chores....

people like me tends to take things for granted...i am not boasting,but in my opinion,i feel dat my parents are the best among my friends...wat i wants,they nv failed to give to me...but i realised i am also the one who treats them the poorest among u guys...rude,inconsiderate,not sensible,taking them for granted etc...after typing all this,i hope i can slowly & steadily change to wat i wanna be...SENSIBLE...rotting & lazy days shld be eliminated...even if i cant find any job,i hope i can still contribute something to my family....hope tis time my words will be counted,not juz empty promises....

pissed off....

2004-09-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

i am already feeling down recently...i already feel sad & sorry for my dad & family of the shit we r going thru right now,yet i cant do anything for him...but when i see my tag board today.....i was really angry....

joanne,yest i was busy doing my resume,yet i still spent some time to put aside it and help u edit ur blog....its either careless or i nv see carefully....i edit it out of place..but i am sure i did it rightly....u sounded in urs & my blog as though i am purpose,or as though i had owe u....

u noe wat,i was wondering hw cum rite now i am still helping u,or i still bother to reply u everytime u msg me in MSN...yes,forgive and forget...there is something u ought to noe...there is limit to tolerance....mayb the others might not say,i shld let u noe right now...though u may said u wont give a damn @ all....

ask urself hw many times u had put aeroplane on us...frm last yr till now....not dat i care,i juz hate it when pple tua me..once is alright,twice is alrite...it countless time man...or have u ever give a confirm reply saying U CAN...if gt,i always remember it ended up u cant make it...another thing abt u....u seem to think we r gd to be make use....one min u can said something bad & hurting to tis person,the other min i found out u r receiving mp3s frm him,or swallowing ur pride to let him treat u in KTV..or hoping he will rent car for ur bbq etc..

today,ur those 'wah lao','sian 1/2' & 'damn shock' really force me to tolerate no longer...i love to help my friends,but for those who treat me like shit or as if i owe them,i will said fuck off....i will help u one last time,i had adjusted ur blog thing properly...i am damn sure abt it tis time....

i am not perfect...i noe i am v harsh wif those words....but reflect on those things i said abt u....whether i tok nonsence or wat,u noe it urself...

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2004-08-28T15:18:00.000+08:00

yest cheekeong & ruiqiang book out...went supper wif them....1st time we managed to gather since they enlisted....shaowei drove his father's new nissan primera bring us to changi,dam.n chio sia the car(wonder when i can own such an elegant car =x).ruiqiang was telling us hw tough NS life is...wah,he fitness test get gold already stuggling...i wonder hw i gonna survive,somemore u all noe i get silver is becos my friend help me run 2.4 one =x...

heard lots of demoralising stories...the worse is when the first week he was enlisted,one guy in his platoon passed away due to jogging...haiyo...not the first time i heard of such kinda case liao....go NS really must chao keng sia...haha....den he oso advice us to pass our swimming test,den we will be able to rest while those failed had to re-do...haha...i really must focus on swimming liao =D on the other hand,chee keong,who is in police seems to be v relax...haha....no wonder tummy still the same as jackal.. =x haa..no la,got smaller abit =D

@ first go out happy,listen to their story my mood abit sian 1/2...haha..but nvm,going to church in few hours time....gonna be great as ever =D

prayer meeting...feeling great....

2004-08-27T13:03:00.000+08:00

last time 'ton' is either during bbq,or chalet...yest 1st time 'ton' all the way in church for prayer meeting...frm 11.30 to 5 am....haha....may seem like v long hours rite?...but actually time pass v fast...the others left early cos they had work..in the end left me kenvin & enlong....

feels so great attending prayer meeting...besides singing lots of praise & worship songs to god...most impt,i get to learn lots of things during this session...each time i went,each time i had improve speaking & singing in tongue....praying within small grp oso help me learned hw to pray for my friends,families,cell grp,church and many other things...i hope i will be able to make it for every prayer meeting session,cos i want to pray for the others,& i noe god will answer our prayers....

anyway,thank city harvest for providing all those transport to us...haha...was wondering wat i gonna do when the session finish @ 5am...heng gt those transport,or else gonna stuck in jurong rot b4 the 1st mrt come...somemore it is tour bus sia,comfortable...haha...thk god....

swim.......

2004-08-24T03:35:00.000+08:00

now muscle ache...haha...long time nv excerise....went swimming wif kenvin & guojing juz now....swim halfway no stamina liao.cant catch up wif 2 babe,sian 1/2...lol...can consider swimming as a to do list,NS oso required swimming rite?...heh...

anyway,whole day was listening hillsong's "all day" song....the one they sang @ chc....like it more & more...nice,esp the part 'I don't care what they think about me It's alright, they'll get it one day' =D

forget abt unhappy things ,cos nice things will follow v soon.....

2004-08-22T02:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday nite(fri) met up wif attachment mates...its always nice & enjoyable meeting those guys....always had lots of things to catch up...unsurprisingly,some cant make it...some still inside camp...so left the usual few xinling,maggie,shaowei,yiyin,kelvin...heh...ask jieqi go but as usual,she wanna laze @ home...haha...actually wanna go marina eat steamboat,shun bian find kenvin,but was raining...somemore xinling not feeling well...so we go lao pa sa eat instead....after dat v qiao saw another 2 of our attachment friends there,lishan & olivia...

during those days we luv to take pics in office...so long time nv met up,so i bring my cam along too...heh...we went boat quay there sit,tok cock & take pic till 11...

today hillsong utd & pastor Ulf came chc...nice experience,esp hearing hillsong utd sang...love them...their song rocks...no diff frm seeing celebrities...haha..."ONE WAY,JeSus...You're the only one that i could live for"~~kenvin was telling me their version is v fast though...haha...**btw,me & kenvin were praying for mingyao...we nv gave up on u,still waiting...wahhaha....

sad,disappointed..............................

2004-08-20T12:53:00.000+08:00

haha....of cos la...my wish nv come true...i failed my driving test...sianz....lots of stupid & careless mistake....kena damn lots of demerit point...haizz....waste money waste energy...mayb god feels this is not the right time for me to pass ba...gt to admit i am still a lousy & careless driver...=/

morale really damn low earlier on...but after a sleep feel much better....later gonna meet my attachment friends...long time nv meet them liao....today den manage to get them gather again...dats considered a consolation yea?... heh

bo liao post...

2004-08-16T16:34:00.000+08:00

change back to tis song again....hah...cos recently the drama of tis song started liao..missed tis song though...tokin abt drama,u all gt watch yi tian tu long ji?nice sia....havent watch faster GO WATCH NOW...haha...1st is becos gt babes(zhou zhiruo & zhaomin)...2nd is those fighting scenes v nice....

yest first time prepared refreshment in cell grp...really nv expected so fast my turn sia...haha...but actually i din do much,@ first tot gonna prepared spaghetti wif stephen,but think no time ba...so work is much easier =D

damn it,man utd lost in their 1st game...knn,still lacked of creativity & sparks in attack...last season quite obvious liao yet tis season man utd still dun sign any player..quck sign a winger to backup for ronaldo & giggs la...kaoz....really sad to see my beloved club played so badly now......haizz

shagged....

2004-08-13T00:13:00.000+08:00

today duno y felt damn tired...yest watch soccer nv watch finish felt asleep...@ nite watch video watch halfway oso felt asleep....go bugis walk few steps oso tired...old liaoz...haha...yea,today went bugis again,wif enlong & kenvin...lookin for job...too bad,wasted trip...fucking supervisor dun wan take that notice off,waste our breath....den as usual,kenvin & enlong shopping again,buying a ring & t shirt respectively...anyway,saw my ex,liyian in bugis street too...wah,open shop be own boss seh...heh...after dat she msg me,said my looks had changed but style havent change..wat she meant is me look more mature(wonder is gd or bad thing,heh),but my hair still like to style like in sec sch...haha...

anyway,duno wats up recently...@ a time when i am super broke,there r actually pple coming up to me asking for money....yest while on the way to 201 meet kenvin they all,a kid come up to me & ask for money....today when i was in a bus a malay mid thirties guy ask for money as well....showing me his operation scar den said he no money all those...den when i was in bugis a malaysian guy oso ask for money...show me a document abt he lost his passport or wat,need money to take photograph....dotxx....

today........

2004-08-12T00:57:00.000+08:00

after 1 mth,finally restart driving lessons again...tot my skills will be rusty,but surprisingly,did okie...engine nv stalled once...haha....parrallel & vertical parking oso no problem,but going up slope still my weakness...haiz....still gt 5 more revisions...better bucked up.....

anyway after my lessons,went to downtown east to meet sephanie,cos she need me to help her book chalet,cos i think those birthday in aug gt better priviledge...but when reach there she found out actually the priviledge open for public liao...haa...but not exactly a wasted trip,cos long time nv see her,get to catch up wif her again...actually going tamp central wif her find aijia,cos tot mingyao they all gonna meet there oso...but they already in kenvin's hse...so,i go 201 meet them instead,cos we wanna go cut hair....

yea,mingyao more handsome liao....new hair style sia...haha....me and kenvin,cut like nv cut....cos i only cut my behind layered,kenvin oso roughly the same...lolx...den after dat,we go MAC again..mingyao surf net,we nothin do,go sign the ezlink thing redeem point...lol...abit cheapskate sia,but heck care la...now no $$ got free burger eat den eat lor...haha....yea,everyone toking abt sgidol now,think banana man v pop nw rite...lolx...funny sia the judge,not amused but pissed off instead...haha...the guy behind the melon(or banana) mask actually posted his 'evil plan' few mths ago...read if free ba

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shopping day,but not me....haha

2004-08-11T03:02:00.000+08:00

today went bugis wif kenvin,mingyao,enlong,guojing,tecksiang,layleng....plus the tian mi mi couple,jackal & jaslyn...haha....actually @ first i tot we juz met up to tok cock,but in the end we spend most of the time shopping for things...today i wear my presents go out...haha...new bag,new bracelet,new shirt...yea,jackal's lao po now 'showing her true colours' liao...1st time saw her as timid as mouse,hide behind jackal back...today beat the hell out of me sia...another of the violent ger i met in recent times...haha...anyway,we shop for present,den enlong buy a type 1 jeans,guojing buy a type 1 jacket...kenvin bought a long sleeve shirt....i din buy anything,cos i am broke,no $$ sadzzzz.....anyway,lay leng told me dat a duno wat restaurant need pple now,thurs i wanna go down wif enlong see work anot...if not mayb gonna try go back levis see can anot...after next week must find job liao....or else my mother gonna nagged me till i go in NS....haha

a surprise discovery,,,

2004-08-10T03:31:00.000+08:00

yea,receive 'another' present today...cos i dat day when return home nv check the plastic bag properly...den today when my mother was tidy the room wanting to clear the pastic bag,she discover inside gt a small gift...den passed it to me..was surprise den saw a note and noe its frm carrie...lol...sorrie carrie,heh,thk god for letting my mum notice it..or else i might even lost it b4 lookin @ it....thks v much carrie,i like the bracelet v much...tis yr receive quite alot of presents compare to previous yrs,and they r quite useful and r something i lacked of too....thks friends.....(btw,thks maggie too...funny ger,post in her bulletin to wish me happy birthday...let 'whole world' noe...haha)

yea,today as usual,sleeping half of day...although national day but no tv programme to watch....was asked by kenvin to help him record the sgidol...haha...actually dun intend to watch,cos channel 8 gt the celebrity telematch(bikinis celebs wor =x)...but when watch the sgidol,was glued to it...haha....nice and funny sia....so many william hung wannabes....one fool even strip in front of the judges(i think tis guy is someone who create his own website saying hw handsome or hw great he is)....haha...din noe sg gt so many bhbs willing to made a fool in front of tv....

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nice day...had a memorable birthday...thks friends

2004-08-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

celebrated my 22th birthday 2 days ago...quite a bz day,enjoyed myself alot too...b4 i start,juz wana said thank you god & my friends(kenvin,cartoon,mingyao,teck siang,guo jing,veron,clara,peiqi,carrie,layleng & of cos my cell grp bro & sis) for being wif me dat day...heh

quite a loh soh post,writing abit too detailed liao...but i juz hope in future when im free,i can look back @ tis post,as i wanna see how god has given me one of the best & memorable birthday i ever had....

was suppose to meet those guys 1 pm @ orchard...but met veron 15 min earlier cos she said gt problem wana tell me..but actually is she planning a surprise for me la...lol...was really touched by wat she did,buy a cake wif for me,sing birthday song 4 me...think receive quite alot of presents frm her(in visible or invisible form)...a buttoned shirt,a nice bottle filled wif 99 nice red seeds,a cake,a small card wif touching words & a mystery gift...(2 painful gifts oso,bite my hand & shoulder,gt mark sia,dotx...haha)...a thousand thks oso wont be enuff,but still,wanna thk u for ur efforts...(yea,thks to ur friends too,counted it,abt 12 wishes me...haha)..ya,btw,thanks to zhixiong who had a share in the present too... really appreciate it =D

den as we wait till 1.30 liao mingyao kenvin they all still havent arrived....i called them den realise they actually @ orchard liao,but they were shopping for my present...lol...thks guys,i like the bag alot....think last time chat wif kenvin abt sling bag,he noe i looking for 1....den when he asked me wat i lacked of,i gt a feeling he trying to find out wat birthday present to buy sia...hah....thanks bros....yea,after dat we went ktv...which i tot will nv gonna happen due to so many pple not coming...1st time sing @ hall....although we nv really sing much(cos shared wif others),we quite enjoyed the facilities there....gt beer drink,got internet access,gt pool play,gt nice air con,a gd place to take some pic oso....haha....

but guess we go there too late,only stayed for 2 hours,cos had to go church...waiting for one of our songs to come b4 we left..but b4 we noe it,its already 6.15...in the end we reach church @ 7.15...although not late for service,but we r actually suppose to reach @ 7...guess we had learn a lesson ba,heh....anyway,celebrate my birthday for the 1st time wif cell grp bro/sis....was happy & touching....abit pai seh,as i was standing in the middle den so many of them singing birthday song for me...felt so blessed....receive a baleno pouch as birthday present oso..will be useful to me since i dun have 1...heh

after church,we went down to paradiz to look for mingyao,teck siang & veron....abt 11plus den reach...haha...but reach liao veron said she leavin....said mingyao give her wrong info dat we 9 plus finish church,she had been waiting and rotting for v long sia,poor ger..haha..den accompany her to mrt...b4 she go,i said 1 last thanks to her, plus a pinch on her cheeks oso...haha....after dat go back paradiz lan shop surf net a while,lay leng oso come liao....den after dat,me,kenvin & layleng tok cock & gossips @ mac while waiting for mingyao & tecksiang & dickson finish their pool....after dat go to the opp centre point there eat supper...damn hungry,eat chicken rice (2 bowl of rice),den help lay leng eat her friek kway teow oso...after dat,mingyao,dickson & lay leng go home first,left me,teck siang & kenvin slacking waiting for guojing & cartoon to finish their ktv session...den we go cineleisure find toilet..haha...nothin to do,so they take pic of the big garfield soft toy there,n those cute posters of garfied wif my cam....after dat,we relac,tok cock,me n kenvin smoke for the last time,promise to quit smoking once n for all(i said dat many times,but nw 22th birthday,tis time hope really will do it ba)..haiz...

anyway,thks to everyone who wish me happy birthday dat day.....first time so many pple wished,really happy & touched(think ard 40 plus ba).....

i think its the blessing of god,giving me a v memorable & enjoyable birthday...i love you jesus,you r the best...u had answer my prayer,and i know u wanted me to be happy on dat day....thank you so much for making everything possible....amen....

older by another yr liaozz..........

2004-08-07T04:28:00.001+08:00

since now cant sleep,i blog now cos tmr whole day not ard....

thks to my loving parents,who bought my fav ice cream cake...they noe i wont be @ home tmr,so buy the cake for me today

to be honest,i wld be lying if i said i am not disappointed & frustrated wif the unsuccessful ktv...i was hiding my feelings...i @ first already noe gt a few cant make it becos of projects,camp,going grandma hse,or working etc....den sudden those few whom i tot confirm wif me,last min told me they cant make it....(hope b4 u get angry wif me for saying tis,try to think hw u feel if u'r in my situation)....

confirmed list of pple going oso messy liao,plus add up those absentees....i told kenvin might as well cancel the ktv thing...was planning to rot @ home on sat till 6 pm den go church....den receive veron's msg ask me wats the planning for the next day...told her the reasons y i not celebrating....den she offered to accompany me celebrate...even told me gt surprise planning for me....haha(thank you v much to u,veron....although i noe u 1 week only,u make me feel so fortunate & blessed to have u tis friend)..

den b4 it reach 12 midnite,i started to pray & also for my birthday wishes.....set my hp to silent mode to avoid distractions....was shocked when checked dat i had receive 10 plus msgs...the funny thing is,half of those r pple i duno...they r friends of veron & yiyin(attachment friend)...touched sia,they wish me i v happy liao,still call their friends to msg..haha...receive mingyao msg oso...i told him i've already told kenvin ktv cancelled...but he said still gonna meet tmr...carrie oso going......long time nv see her,guess dats a gd present for me ba...lol...as for who else going,i also not sure....anyway,in the end conference wif mingyao,lay ling & kenvin awhile to confirm those timing all those...

****thks to veron(and her 2 friends),kenvin,yiyin(& her 4 friends),xinling,carrie,mingyao,layling,shaowei,zhixiong & sis wanee for those birthday wishes =D
lastly ,thank god for answering my prayer....pray dat my birthday wishes will come true...in the name of jesus,amen...

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2004-08-05T01:01:00.000+08:00

heh...juz to help Mrs Jackal hoon,her nick is '------' instead of '......',gt difference one.....but there is a anonymous troublemaker using tis '.......' nick to tok rudely to jieqi....heh....so,now i clearing the misunderstanding for her....hehe...**so mrs hoon,next time tag use real name ok? =p

anyway,unexpectingly noe a new friend today...and its frm MSN of all places..cos i see my MSN contact list gt one unknown nick,den go pm ask who is she...she oso duno hw cum i am in her contact list....wonder y,mayb my bro use my MSN den add her sia..haha...anyway,we chat wif each other & add each other in friendster lor...an interesting ger,a half jap,half chinese born in singapore,and nw study in australia...

anyway,decide sat go ktv celebrate ba...iniatially kenvin suggest go pub @ nite,but i guess many cant make it,plus exp,plus most impt,i hate clubbing =x haha...okie,abit dull,last week already go ktv liao...but nvm la,can get together,tok cock,sing song....contend enuff....pple r welcomed to go chc wif us after the ktv =D

today.......

2004-08-04T01:46:00.000+08:00

today is better den yesterday?haha...cos i nv on the computer '24 hours'...i only on for few hours...i am really determined to stop tis com addict habit..heh....anyway,i spend those free time today watchin video,sms,look @ lyrics(christian songs...heh)....half of the day was sms tokin wif veron...hah,was touched by tis 'drooling'ger sia...cos noe her for not more den 1 week,she said wanna buy birthday present for me when she was shopping today....honestly i really will feel pai seh to accept presents...i will be contend if there r pple celebrating birthday wif me,& also taking photos together....den i will have valuable memories in future...but HOR,one thing i wont pai seh is-------birthday kiss(frm babes lor ...heh....

anyway,i duno saturday how i going to celebrate...@ nite i confirm going church...dats y cant have dinner(tot of steamboat @ first)...so planning on afternoon ba....tot of going ktv again,cos i running out of ideas...den kenvin suggest go ice skate(although i nv skate b4)...heh...i duno lor,see u guys ba,ask kenvin plan & poll for me,lolx....but jieqi,jackal(& of cos her dear...haha),& zhixiong confirm cant make it dat day....

**btw,if anyone happen to see an unnamed nick scolding me in my TAG board,dun help me scold her...cos she is somehw related to u all(mayb ur in law or forum mate etc)...hahaha =P

slacking life....i gonna end it...hopefully frm today onwards...

2004-08-02T12:08:00.000+08:00

well,slacking frm mid april till now....3 mth plus....time pass damn fast rite....everyday is the same,wake up @ 12 or 1 plus,on com,on tv,sleep,on tv,on com till 4 or 5 am...dat time when i was having my driving lessons my insomnia was cured finally,now i gt nothin to do liaoz,my insomnia is back again....all my friends r either working,NS,or study....only me leading tis kind of lifestyle...anyway,i had recover 100 percent frm my injury liao,i think i shld start jogging frm tmr onward...abt 3 times a week ba...and i hope i can stop being a COM addict...i am increasing the electric bill and wasting my parent's money...arghhhhhhhh

yest receive stephen msg,saying cell grp meeting will changed frm thurs nite to sun morning...abit not v welcoming news to me,cos if its on thurs,@ least i gt sometime to do on thurs nite...but on sun morning,i cant wake up late sia...after dat oso duno go where....but after few tots,i feel dat shld considerate others oso ba,cos most of them will be tired @ nite after a long day working or study....den so late the gers go home not so safe oso....plus if held on sun,mayb next time when i go NS can attend the meeting oso...

anyway,today finally finished doing kenvin's blog layout....felt relieve,cos dun have much ideas on improving it after some failed attempts..lol..den sudden tot of putting the pic which we few guys sat horizontally...lucky the effect turns out well....also help joanne wif her blog....although they thanked me,but i actually shld thank them....cos i looking for things to do.....haha....so if u guys need my help & i am able to help,dun hesitate to find me....i am trying to do some gd deeds b4 going NS..HaHa..... =D

a long but enjoyable day....

2004-07-31T14:10:00.000+08:00

yea,celebrate guojing birthday...tok abt the day b4(thurs) 1st ba...was having cell grp meetings...sis wan ee motivate us to love ourselves more....feel more confident of ourselves...yea,i guess everyone noes dat i am those who lack of self confident,always feel inferior to others...i pray to god dat i wan to change to a better person,i wan to luv myself more...yes,i believe i can do it one day....anyway,we oso celebrate guo jing birthday...and he receive a hang ten jeans as present,which he wore on yest(anyone notice?) ...haha....

so yest his actual birthday celebration,we went to partyworld KTV...was surprise clara & her bf & her friend went along...haha...her friend(lay ling if i not wrong) actually we seen b4 la,but din noe she so violent sia..haha...cos we ask her take pic,she dun wan...den bopian we take candid shots lor...wow,she beat us v violent sia...haha...but juz play play only la....

yea,there is another ger who we nv met b4,her name is veron...haha...tis ger @ first i tot is peiqi classmate...seen her blog b4 oso(cos frm one of peiqi linK)...pic & actual person diff...i was shocked she told me she is 18 liao(cos she really looks like 15),in jc currently..haha..(can ask her intro me some jc babes =x)...den when kenvin take the cake out,i saw her stretching her head out,so cute sia...haha...den began to tease her frm there onwards ask her dun keep 'drooling'...heh...but she v gd la,help me carry my 'heavy' bag...haha...

anyway,was fun in the ktv...take lots of pics...long time nv take pics wif melodyland peeps liao....anyway i upload them all in my photo album liao....lazy to put in tis blog...anyone wan see can visit tis link

GuoJing Birthday Photos

after ktv we went PS eat...den after dat they were playing arcade...guess wat...we caught someone RED HANDED...haha...Jackal GOT A GIRLFRIEND...haha...and u noe wat?the ger is someone frm melodyland....her nick is freedom...lolx...chatted wif her b4,and last time she gt meet & went out wif jackal & ah von...den i keep tease her they 3 love triangle(cos i can see ah von like jackal)...haha...anyway,wish jackal all the best & treasure this relationship...his da shi xiongs(me,kenvin & mingyao) still not as lucky as him...lol
den later went starbucks slack...joanne came oso....den b4 we go take some pics oso...

@ the end of day,enlong,kenvin,guojing & me go chc for prayer meeting session...we prayed frm 11.30pm to 3am...i enjoyed it,its a v gd experience for me,as i learn quite a no. of things frm that session...yea,thk stephen who send us home...he almost kena fined & demerit point becos of us sia..really feel bad...thank god the traffic police nv stopped the car....amen....

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2004-07-27T00:45:00.000+08:00

too last min liao,guess tis week not meeting yiyin they all watch movie liao..change to next week...haha...anyway plan next week go oso gd,cos maggie will be joining us oso....bopian...tmr & wed the xinling cmi....den thurs i cell grp,friday gt guojing birthday.....heh

anyway,today go CDC book my tp test date liao...@ first tot can book on 19th of aug,cos my last revision is on 18th...too bad...only gt 20th aug slot...somemore at 8.25 am..haha...i need to reach by 7.25 for the briefing,early sia....a 'big' day for me...pray hard i can make it....haha....hope some of the friends i made frm keeptouch oso can go thru ba,gt @ least 4 oso takin tp on aug sia....heh...

next week gonna be fun....

2004-07-25T03:06:00.000+08:00

lolx...i think most pple had scary or unbelievable dream...but yest i gt a realistic dream dat make me v angry...cos i was having dream i left my hp in a class...den when i go back find & saw a person take,i go after him..he noe abt it liao throw my hp on the floor as if nothin happen...haha...den i manage to get hold of him and demand for the damage....but when the bell ring,he disappear to duno where liao...den i woke up,i was v angry...haha....stupid sia....

anyway,today weekend connection...mingyao & feng nv turn up....but anyway service is still as fun as ever...i am 'reborn' today....jesus is there to take away all my sins...anyway,i din manage to eat those free hot dogs,as i gave the new friends first....self sacrifice sia,but to be honest,i abit regret after dat =x...after service go S-11 wif kenvin & guojing to slack,discuss abt guojing next weeks birthday celebration..

while waiting for soccer to start,decide to go MSN to see gt anyone to chat...surprise suprise,my attachment friends,yiyin & cheekeong was in it..haha...so long nv see them miss them sia....den yiyin oso jio me go watch mean girls next week....finally found someone to watch wif me tis show,cos i had been trying to find someone to watch wif me...of cos,i seldom watch eng movie,but tis time is lindsay lohan act...plus gd reviews of tis show...heh...in case u all duno,she is the ger on e right hand side of my blog...actually like her since her movie 'the parent trap'....she was only 11 yrs old dat time......now 18 liao become more pretty oso..haha..recommended u all watch 'the parent trap',cos i seldom watch eng movie but fell in luv wif tis show...hha...gonna ask shaowei,xinling they all whether they free to watch oso...excited sia =D

=D

2004-07-22T03:13:00.002+08:00

was bored,change to another song....haha...bo pian sia,cos i think i v easy to listen song until sian....tis time song,frm twins...my most fav...haha....see how long i will get tired of... =D

today receive a sms frm stephen....ask me hw am i doing,hw is my back......den in the end,ask me gt read bible anot...haha...he & kenvin keep asking me tis recently.....not dat i dun wan,but i always forgt dat i can read bible when there is nothin for me to do...lol....but today on the way to PS meeting kenvin,mingyao they all....i was reading it in MRT.....but i think i did a rude thing.....cos i sit in the middle of 2 person mah...den this 2 person r friends mah.... keep toking wif each other( wif me in between)....i was thinking sooner or later i will kena 'DROWN' by their saliva...so i purposely left my seat & rather stand @ a corner....was standing all the way reading bible...haha......

b4 dat i was taking bus,so coincidence met my ex classmates....who r both teaching PT tuition rite now...was toking & laughing in the bus loudly wif them....den i told them dat i am not going next mth's graduation ceremony....u all might ask y rite...becos i think its a waste of time,wearing formal,acting as if i am v happy....most impt thing is,i dun enjoy the sch life @ all.....dun have any real gd friends there for me to share my joy wif also(if gt oso frm nyp,pple i made frm attachment).....so wat for going back rite....but however,if anything goes smoothly,i will be truely happy on Aug 19 though....heh.....

anyway,has been quite long since i met mingyao & feng oso....so today as usual,we rot together,tis time @ PS.....haha....not bad,tis Sat mingyao & feng will be joining us to church..kenvin pyscho skill more & more power,getting mingyao (U5) to go church =x....haha..but not forcing them la....juz to invite them visit CHC & enjoy the service,somemore tis weekend special-weekend connection...we r encouraged to bring friends there.....anyway,i guess they will enjoy the atmospher oso....somemore 4 out of the 5 melodyland wolf clan going church together...will be fun rite....haha...frm kenvin,to me,to cherish,to mingyao,to feng...so whose next? =D

on the way to recovery finally?....

2004-07-14T00:50:00.000+08:00

guess it helps after few days resting @ home....much of the pain i suffered had gone suddenly (yest i am still v pain sia)....now i am feeling many times better.....stephen said cos god noe i am attending church today,dats y help me recover...lol...mayb??....

anyway,today i almost kena another accident sia...can said quite funny but still dangerous...heng nothing happen....cos my father driving me to CMPB mah...den b4 i enter the car,i throw the x ray thingy & my bag in first...den i slowly enter the car (cos of my back,muz be careful..heh)...suddenly the car move off without me fully entering the car...heng its @ a low speed n my mother was yelling at my father asking him to stop...den my father realise i havent got in the car so faster stop...lol...blur sia him.....he tot i had already got in but actually wat he heard was my x ray & bag....thank god nothin happen...

yea,den see the CMPB doc for medical review...was change to PES D status...which means unfit for grading pending further reports...next mth after my next hosp checkup den see wat the doc say...was also told my current enlistment date (oct 1st) will be postponed...wondering whether issit gd or bad.....

thank god.....

2004-07-10T08:09:00.000+08:00

was told by the doc there is nothing serious,although rite now is still v pain....@ first tot need to stay in hospital 4 observation,and very possible to have operation,cos the pain had extend frm the back waist to the lower part of the body....i guess my mother's prayer did help...my mother went to duno where and pray and was told that i am going thru a bad luck...was advice not to swim/go near water,or quarrel wif pple during this period...i am not a superstitious person,but i think better listen her advice....play safe...lol...

anyway,the doc said i will be recover in few mths time...dun think able to do active excercise....gonna ask a letter frm them to give CMPB....hopefully can downgrade...heh =D

din go and meet stephen & my ex sec sch mates yest cos of the pain....was surprise my ex schmate ask me go watch spiderman yest,haha...n stephen actually wanna ask me go marina south eat steamboat cum disturb kenvin....haha....too bad...had difficulty moving ard,so.....think one reason my pain had extended is becos after i discharge frm hospital,i almost go out everyday,nv really rest properly.....somemore i learn driving 3 lessons per day continuously....now modules all finish,only waiting for TP & revision in aug....so i guess i will nt be going out for a week,resting @ home to see whether my condition gets better.....

bad feelings......

2004-07-09T01:12:00.000+08:00

duno y,i got a bad feeling i might need to stay in the hospital tmr..the pain in my back is growing each day...last few days i only feel the pain when i did not sit properly or when i turn ard,walking the stairs or when coming out frm the car....today i can feel the pain even when i walk....think its getting serious....the pain i am feeling is like something hitting my nerve(mayb the fractured bone),cos my leg will be sensitive to it....
As i had postpone the hospital appointment to next week originally(cos of my driving lessons),my mother suggest to bring me to see chinese physician first...i am abit skeptical abt it....told sis wanyi abt it and she also advice me to check wif hospital 1st b4 seeing those chinese physician....today,the pain become so unbearable that my mum call me to check whether i can changed the checkup date to tmr....luckily,the hospital staff allowed....so tmr i will be going to see the orthopaedic...anyway,frm joyce's blog found out she had been troubled lately,her bf oso in a terrible condition rite now...haiyoz....pray dat all of us will be fine soon......

not a bad day...

2004-07-04T10:48:00.000+08:00

like wat joyce said,others hasnt been blogging...me oso hasnt been blogging...cos nothing interesting...don't want post for the sake of posting...haha...ok enuff of craps...anyway,today not bad,will be easy to rem tis date...cos got 3 friends birthday(mayb even more,just dat i duno)...janelle,cherish & xinling...hope they enjoy themselves today and wish will come true....

tis few days has been sleeping quite early...ard 12 or 1 am...hope tis is a start,when i finally overcome my insomnia problem...heh...but bad thing is,i yest feel dat the pain in my back had come back again....today is even more worse...haiz....hope it is not serious....

anyway,just like wat kenvin said,i accepted christ on thurs cell grp meeting...i accepted 'him' becos i wanna lead a more 'colourful' life...and also hope to become a better person...heh...went to yest service too,and saw quite a few of my friends....one is my ex classmate,janet and another is my ex collegue josephine..lol,always see her in the big screen(cos she is @ the front row),but no chance met her....yest saw her while waiting for the bus n had a chat wif her...still rem those days when we sat down & slack and kena caught by 2 managers..now i guess we kena blacklisted by NTUC income pple liao =x....haha...funny moments...

tired....

2004-07-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

think i only sleep for 4 hours...trying to stay awake until the holland vs portugal game.....today wake up damn early to go traffic police hq to make statement...hah...the sergent said they will investigate,and if i am guilty i will be fine!!...lol....hw much?....$20...luff until peng...cos fear will be alot,@ least $100..i am @ fault mah,jaywalking....when i told my dad, he joked he had lots of $1 coin available...pay fine wif those coins ba...ha²...

anyway,after leaving the station liao go straight to the driving centre..cos still gt abt 1 hr plus b4 lesson start,was damn bored...duno wat to do @ there...den realise heng i had a street directory wif me(to find out hw to go TP HQ earlier) and began to 'study' various expressway,mayb dat helps in future...yea....1st 2 lesson met friendly instructors,not fierce ones...abit difficult in the begining to get the 'biting point'...or step the acelerator pedal to the desired level without looking at the meter ....but after some time....get the hang of it liao...den oso familiarise wif turning all those.....quite fun....looking forward to tmr lessons....and oso 1st cell grp meeting...long day ahead....heh...scare i fall asleep sia...later better dun have extra time...i hope holland will win,but gt a feeling portugal will go thru....

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2004-06-30T01:40:00.000+08:00

juz finish watching the guess guess guess...haha...today's episode damn funny...as usual,damn bad sia...jacky wu keep teasing a lady becos of her weight...den one of the gers(the no.4) in 'ren bu ke mao xiang' quite chio but shy...duno y feel she look abit like my friend maggie....

anyway...receive a call yest frm ruiqiang,my attachment friend...he ask me if the CMPB gt phone me n asked me wan early NS enlistment anot?...he said dat if i agree,we mayb can be put into e same company....i am tempted,cos if together wif ruiqiang,shaowei,kelvin they all....its like returning back to our attachment days....haha..but dun think so la...still gt 3 more mths...i still gt a lot of 'unfinished business' to do...like driving test,birthday,jogging to regain stamina....somemore i am still recovering frm back injury...wonder can i 'keng' change my status frm pes A to a more relac one anot =x ....i will consider go down cmpb show them my x rays,if my back still give me problem next month....

anyway,today oso receive a msg frm charles(another attachment friend)...who was enlisted to commando recently....haha...as expected,he is damn siong now....last time keep pyscho him go spa/massage parlour relac =x .....now he asking me to bring him there tis weekend...haha....but now my back pain like hell,if kena massage i think my back bone is gonna crack...haha....see how ba...if dun go there go other place tok cock oso gd.... =)

the traffic police call me to go down to their headquarter tmr cos they wanna take my statement....heng its near the driving centre....after dat think still on time to take my 1st lessons....excited sia....haa...wonder will i have phobia wif the road????

i am fine everyone...i think my accident is a blessing in disguise..

2004-06-28T01:45:00.000+08:00

so unexpected...the previous post i was intending to update more abt dat nite after the KTV outing...only get to continue frm there now...haha....(pls bear wif me,i think tis journal will be the longest...haha)

anyway,i think almost everyone noe abt my accident liao...only ming yao saw the incident..haha..one funny thing is we were eating Old Chang Kee snacks when we cross the road...i wonder whether he gt saw where my poor curry puff fly to when i was knock by the car...lol...anyway...he told me i was 'flying' quite high in the air after being knock down...i duno,but @ the moment when i was hit by the car,its abit like wat the TV always shown..the victim's mind was full of memory of his past...me also felt the same way too,as i tot i am facing death....like a VCD called,the faces of death....

i nv ever tot wat i always seen on tv will happen to me...when i landed on the ground,the first thing i do is to check which part of my body is hurt,whether i can still stand/walk...amazingly,there is no bleeding,my legs,heads,hands does not suffered any damage...just dat i felt my back is pain...den i realise lots of eyes looking @ me,gt a few strangers oso come and help me out and ask me am i alrite...glad there are some nice pple ard..one of them even help me jot down the car no. of the driver....i am v relieved cos i can still walked without any help...but when i sat,i almost felt unconscious...i sudden felt dizzy....kenvin keep telling me not to sleep,as my eyes was closing...glad i managed to stay awake,cos after a few min i return back to normal again....i see everyone is nervous so i tried to joke wif them to let them noe im alrite,esp guojing,suaning him dat i sweat more den him now(cos he v easy sweat one...haha)...but i think they r still shocked ba....so they bring me to SGH for checkup...

so when i reach SGH,the doc check whether there is any other injury i suffered besides my back...he confirm only my back suffered injury...as usual,i ask him whether issit serious anot,cos i wanna discharge asap,as i feel pai seh to spoilt everyone's nite...instead of going guojing hse eat steamboat & watch soccer,i am wasting their time in a hospital instead...the doc said i may go home dat nite,but need 2 hours of observation cos they wan to x-ray and scan my body....so i ask them to go guojing hse first,after i am discharge i will ask my father to drive me to guo jing hse...

too bad,the doc said i need to stay in hospital 4 further observation cos of my irregular blood pressure....reluctantly,i had to stay over...really feel bad cos my father was waiting for so long,den my mother v gan cheong take cab come down oso...now,tis part is interesting....while i as waiting for them to assigned me to my room,a nurse came over to me and call my chinese name:MAI JIA SHENG....was surprise cos every nurse call my dialect name,but tis one call my hanyupinyin...somemore her voice abit familiar...den i look up and see her face(half covered,wearing the SARS mask)...cant see fully so i look at her name tag...discovered she was my sec sch friend....hahaha....damn coincidence sia....so we chat awhile b4 she go attend other patients....

anyway,when i was assigned to my room,i finally switch on my hp(cos observation room all those cant on hp)...den receive msgs and calls frm mingyao,joyce,kenvin....but cant tok to them cos another doc was tokin to me & checking my condition....tis was the time i was really scared....cos he told me dat frm the scans,there is some fractured in my back...and dat i might need operation depending on wat the bone specialist....sianz....but after dat,i call back to joyce & kenvin to let them noe i am fine...

the next day...i was quite bored...my parents tot i can leave dat day,so come early in the morning....too bad,as i mentioned earlier,i had to wait for the bone specialist to decide whether i need operation...so had to stay at least another day....den my mother said i am quite sway....cos 2 yrs ago,when i enter hospital for my appendix operation,its few weeks after my auntie's wedding....tis time,its one day after my uncle wedding...haiz...fated...anyway,i told them not to come visit me @ nite again,cos i felt quite fine and dun want them to waste time visit me...was really bored dat day...but glad to meet a kind auntie,who is a patient's friend...she bought me fruits n even offered to give me 'money' when i cant find mine...lol..heng im able to find,so i sneaked down to level 1 twice to 'shopped ard'....buy tibits and ice cream to eat.....there was once when i was in a lift together wif a policeman....i duno he is here to find me....until i notice he follow me to my ward....he was there to ask me abt the details of the accident...the car number etc...so during the rest of the day,nothin to do so read newspaper,chat wif some of u....also receive quite a few sms frm u guys....really muz thank u all for concerning me....sorry for those who r worried cos i nv reply...no choice cos hp low batt...lol...

this morning den receive a gd news...the bone specialist said i can go home and rest....but need to do follow up visits....sian 1/2....but its gd i can finally go back home...seldom not online sia...haha...anyway,i think i am quite fortunate..thank god i suffered minor injury...there is the saying that goes like "da nan bu shi,bi you hou fu"...hope it applies to me as well....btw,thks to everyone here,i am really alrite now...and dun blame urself liao peiqi....there r many Ifs....IF the driver stop on time,IF i look carefully,IF i dun eat curry puff and concentrate walking(lol),IF i walk underpass instead....all kinds of things happening in june sia...frm sad,to happy to scary....pray dat better things will come instead....

england clash out..............but tis match benefited me in some ways..........

2004-06-25T11:02:00.000+08:00

wah...everyone's fav team,england is out...b4 dat hope england will win...but after watching i must say portugal deserved to win,cos they r dominating majority of the match....

btw,for a long time in duno hw many days....i am finally able to sleep early-4.30..ok,may seem to be still quite late..but me v jialat...my insomnia had become worse during holidays....i nowadays 6 or 7 den able to sleep,no matter hw tired i am....but yest b4 watching finish the match i slept....hahah.....anyway later ktv,intend to bring digicam go...long time nv take pic wif them liao......will update more>>>>>>>>>

silent mode...............

2004-06-25T00:52:00.000+08:00

lol...just after i post finish yest journal mentioning hw happy i am tis week,i woke up tis morning a much happier person....had a sweet dream,although this dream is not v possible,at least it brought back some memories....

anyway,ya...topic of the day is silent mode...haha...went uncle's(not mingya0,haha) wedding today...den quite unusual,they arrange all cousins to sit together,instead of sitting together wif our parents....haa..speaking of cousin,last time when young really damn close...nowadays saw each other is like complete stranger..barely tok..as i guess some of u noe me and my bro seldom tok also,me was silent mode e whole nite....

while having dinner,i was thinking of the 1st cell grp meeting which i had missed...haiz...can imagine i had miss those fun...anyway,becoming my standard procedure recently...every journal comes wif a pic....wahhaha....here is the pic of me,my cousins,bro,uncle....

later portugal vs england....i hope england will go thru,but feel sorry for cristiano ronaldo if portugal eliminated....the most exciting player in the tournament~~~~~~~~

one fine day...lol

2004-06-24T04:52:00.001+08:00

just when i tot i was going to have another boring day rotting @ home,i received a msg frm janelle(aka rebel)...cos she cant go ktv on Friday,so we met up today as she 'owe' us so many times liao...lol...no la...she said pai seh always cant go outing,since today free so can met up lor....somemore mingyao said peiqi wanna come out today,so its like 'hit 2 birds wif one stone'...
anyway,when reach orchard...as usual,me & kenvin arrive the 'earliest'...haha...as usual...we duno wat to do...walk and walk....i sudden rem joyce told me she is going Party World,which is in orchard...so mingyao call her n ask her issit in PW...though she is not in the 'near paragon' Party World KTV,heng she is somewhere nearby....so we go and find her...PURPOSELY causing her to miss a few songs lor...wahahha....
after dat go play pool,go long john eat...too bad kenvin & janelle had to leave early....so left only me,mingyao,teck siang and peiqi....nowhere to go,so they go play billiard..haA...me & peiqi not playing...in order not to feel bored,keep disturb her instead..lol..

since its still early when they finish playing billiard,n we gt nowhere to go....we 3 gentlemen had to accompany one lady home loR...haa...piggyback tis ger along the way home,which i den found out i am quite weak....haha...walk a few steps den struggled liao..jialat...hw am i gonna survive 4 mths frm today......

anyway,today really so many gd things happen....1)able to see janelle & peiqi after nv met up 4 some time...2)not rotting at home....3)Pass my advance theory.....and lastly....HoLLAND advanced to NEXT ROUND~!!!!!!!!!hahahah =p

tmr will be my uncle's wedding,friday will be going KTV,sat & sun church events.....how my one week had changed(if u all still recalled wat i post last week)....thank god for making everything possible.... =D

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2004-06-22T16:10:00.000+08:00

haa...as usual...its boring when its at home doing nothing but face com whole day...somemore other friends' blogs oso not updated recently...haha...since i gt nothing to do,so i post wat happen yest ba...

went tamp to meet mingyao,joanne and kenvin...was surprise there r 3 other gers along too...lol...not joanne or kenvin's friend,but is mingyao's friend....haha...he nowadays tao hua yun sia...nowadays is he intro gers to ask instead(quan kao ni le..haha)....after dat went kenvin hse cos his com gt abit problem,mingyao help him repair...me as usual,cant help much as im a com nerd....but heng gt his young bro is around,play 'wrestling' wif him...i must say he quite strong & determined for a 6 yr old...lol...here's a pic of him....

after dat,went tamp central again...to meet guojing,teck siang and yusuke's friend(tis time is male,heh-david)...haiz....sad to said,when they smoke(exclude kenvin,ha),i was telling myself NO i cant smoke oso...was controlling finely until they told me david's cigarette smoke liao will have a 'cool cool' feeling...was curious and tempted to try it...in the end,cant resist it and take one frm him....urghhhh.....OK....FROM TODAY ONWARDS,I PROMISE MYSELF I WONT SMOKE ANYMORE....MUST CONTROL NO MATTER WAT!!!!

not as boring as i 1st tot.....

2004-06-20T04:45:00.000+08:00

went city harvest church for the 1st time wif kenvin,guojing and enlong today...at 1st tot it is just a normal church,but was v surprise when i reach there....the atmosphere totally diff...when i step into the auditorium,was surprise hw big it is...seems even bigger den mediacorp studio...haa...anyway i think its not as boring as i 1st tot....when i see them singing songs at the stage,i tot i was seeing real artiste performing...when i see they are performing comedy acts,i tot they r professional comedy actors...and still can at least understand wat the pastor is toking abt..haha..(think last time pri sch eng still not gd ba =x)...although still feel v mo sheng,i still wanna thank kenvin for bringing me there....make quite a few friends too,whom i think are really friendly n approachable,esp wanyi,joyce,rebecca,stephen etc...looking forward to future visits...

however,one bad thing that happen today is..........HOLLAND LOST to czech~!!!!!!!!!arghhhhhhh

lolx....primary school pic.....

2004-06-18T17:50:00.000+08:00

saw my ex classmate's friendster pic put my ex class foto...was surprise cos i almost forgotten we had tis pic,or mayb i had lost it....den i ask her to email to me........
still look alike?haha

i'm back...........juz wanna say,thank you,my friends~!

2004-06-17T05:38:00.000+08:00
well,i am one who recover fast....so no worries,i am really back to my usual self again....
really happy and touched to see so many encouraging & nice comments frm u guys....thks guys...pple said friends made frm internet r fake....well,during tis time,the friends who stood by me n gave me support are pple whom i noe online(plus peiqi of cos..haha)....

one person whom really surprise me was minli,whom i guess had read my blog and noe abt my problem....minli,if u r reading this,thank you for ur advice...i will always keep in mind the words u say...

seriously,during this 2 days,i tot of 'disconnecting' wif u guys 4ever,mayb by not going forum,not posting in blog anymore,not going MSN,not going out wif u all....cos i feel dat once i post dat 'story',our friendship will nv be the same again...i will feel its more like sympathy towards me,and i dun wan dat....

however.......

i receive a call frm kenvin today...was surprising,cos i was switching off my hp(trying to avoid of cos)but he happen to call my hse instead...haha....really duno wat to say oso,i just feel mayb i had misunderstand them....or i am really too sensitive or childish.....
but nope,i nv regret posting the previous post....at least now everyone can understand hw i really feel....(although i muz admite i sound quite silly & inmature 4 my age..lol)....he make me realise dat i shld not avoid anymore....

anyway,he also ask me to go church on sat wif him....i was hesitating at first...as i guess i had told some of u,i did went church b4, but 2 bad i dun understand wat the pastor's toking....feels dat i am wasting my time & everyone's time if i go....
but i eventually agree to go wif him.....cos i wana try to change my fate again.....i hope to salvage my friendship,made more friends,and like wat joyce mention in her blog,'step out of depression circle and look for a brighter one'....plus rather den rotting at home doing nothing but facing com whole day,mayb i shld try to do something meaningful.....

melodyland left me wif lots of unforgetable memories....i really treasure my friendship wif u guys....i think i had make the correct choice for not avoiding.....without u all,i dun think i had pple to tok to when i gt problem....i cant go to my fav place like sentosa,KTV or toking cock anyplace,anytime....

juz wanna say,thank you,my friends~!!!!!!!!!

my true feelings........the real me.......

2004-06-15T00:22:00.000+08:00
i think i had reach a decision....u all may think dat i am crazy,i am silly,i am stupid....i dun mind.....i just dun wanna pretend dat i am happy any longer...
it took me quite long to decide whether shld i post this,mayb i will regret cos i will be losing friends....but i just dun wanna pretend any longer....

i think i had told some of u my story few yrs ago...after leaving my sec sch,all my friends left me one after another....dat was one of the lowest point in my life...imagine when pple was enjoying happily outside wif friends, I had to stay in my own hse all day long becos i dun have a single close friend to tok or go out wif...
I used to hate them,but after much thoughts,i feel dat i cant blame them entirely....
i can only blame myself...y i do not noe hw to enjoy life alittle?...whenever they go out,they were either going to play pool/billiard,play CS, or go pub/disco...these r not my interests,and i feel its a waste of time and money doing those things,or shld i said i duno hw to enjoy life....
during dat period of time,i need to retake my O level too....if i pickup all those interests and hang out wif them often just to do something i dun like....hw am i gonna pass my 2nd O level....
In life,u win some,u lose some....wat i gain-enter poly.... wat i lost- friends....

so i told myself...its okie...i will have new friends once i entered poly....too bad,things did not go my way...as my class is full of gers,there r few guys for me to mix ard wif....either they had their own gd friends,either they had bf/gf,or some who just make use of each other in Poly....
so...i think i gave up hope....i am destined to be a loner,destined to stay at home all nite long wif no one's accompany....

all that changed when i went to melodyland 1st outing...i went becos i hope i can changed my fate...this is the 1st time i am meeting online pple(not even during the time when IRC is popular dat i meet net friends alone)....after few mths,we become closer,esp me,kenvin,feng,jackal,yusuke,carrie and others.....nvm its just rotting outside,nvm its toking cock,nvm we come out for the sake of coming out....i had found back something which i lost b4---gd friends....
however,history seems to repeat itself again...as time goes by,i begin to realise i had drift apart wif them....i duno when it started...issit becos of difference in interest again?...or issit becos i really is a fucker who cant get along wif pple,making them irritatated wif me dats y i am being left out time and time again....
during my final yr semester,i was bz wif projects...when they ask me out,i was either too bz and decline them....i am sure dat kenvin and others will notice dat when i am out wif them,i had become much more quieter?...i am begining to sense that we had really drift apart....we dun seem to have much things to tok like in the past...they seems to have new common friends whom i dun noe...i am begining to feel dat i am an 'extra'....i pretend to 'smile'....

so,i eagerly waited until the day i graduated....so dat when they call me out again,i will be able to make it...hopefully we can become as close as b4....its been 2 mths liao...think we only go out 3 or 4 times....mayb i am expecting too much or being sensitive,but sometimes i do sense dat i had been left out frm their activities...
my worst fear had turn out to be true.....i had lost some gd friends again.....i am destined not to have close friends....i dun blame anyone....this happen not once but many times....this prove that i am entirely to blame,not my friends.....

just when i tot i am numb to all this(becos i experience it once),and was deciding whether shld i post my thoughts in my newly created blog....i received a friendster testimonial frm kenvin,who comment abt my 'about me' in friendster....saying something like they r still my close friend.....
i am not afraid to say dat my tears had shed for the 1st time in so many yrs,i was touched....but i cant deceive myself dat it is true....sorry kenvin,the drift btw me and the grp i guess is too big....i am sure dat u notice dat too....

i noe once i post tis msg in my blog,u all might sympathise me and will even call me out often again.....but i dun wan dat to happen....
during tis period,i think i need to cool down....i wont be going out,i wont be going MSN during this period...i am returning to being a loner....i need to reflect all the wrongs dat i did dat cause me to become tis way again....i will still update tis blog once i return back to normal self....take care everyone....

things can changed out of the sudden......be it in life or in football matches.....

2004-06-14T05:31:00.000+08:00
while waiting for the France vs England match to begin,i was surfing the net and was surprise to receive a friendster msg frm my ex sec schmate,agnes....she can be considered one of the VERY few who had contacted me after leaving sec sch...3 yrs ago,b4 we enter poly....becos of one particular subject,we had to retake our O level as private candidate....during this time when all my so called 'gd friends' left me one by one,i guess the only person i contacted was her(dat time i dun even had a single net friends either)....we often practise or teach each other maths questions....glad dat we eventually pass our O level in the end and enter tp and nyp respectively....as each of us r bz wif our poly sch work...we started to drift apart(nothin new to me,duno whether issit my character sux,tends to drift apart wif pple i considered gd friends)...however,really glad dat today i get to chat wif her again,glad to noe 3 yrs later we had graduate too...but too bad,chat halfway the england vs france game began.....hope can catch up wif her again soon....

2nd day of euro2004.....the most anticipated match of the tournament:France vs England....though both are not my fav teams,i had mixed feelings who i wanted to win.....after watching English Premier League for so many yrs,duno y i tends to feel more 'qin qie gan' wif england team....as for france,i always like them cos their players are so talented....so whoever wins i will be happy?......so in the last min....when England is leading 1-0,when i tot England is gonna win....out of the sudden,France scored to make it 1-1 during the 90th min,when everyone tot dat england was gonna win....the real shock doen't end dat.....France scores to make it 2-1 in injury time.....pity england..... IF ONLY david beckham had converted the penalty b4 France scored....IF ONLY Steven Gerald did not make the mistake pass,England will have gain something....so many IF ONLY......just like in life....IF ONLY we do tis or dat.....den things might turn out the way we want...haha...the exictement had just begun..........

end of boring days??.....

2004-06-12T02:47:00.000+08:00
with the help of jieqi,cherish,joyce...i think i had finally completed the design of my blog liao...at first tot shld just create a simple 1 can liao,but 1 thing abt me is,if i dun wana do,i will just heck care...but if i really wanna do something,i must try to do my best..i noe mine is not the best,but i quite satisfied since it is filled wif my fav colours.....haha.....

anyway,y tis topic?....cos today is the start of euro2004 liao....it will last abt 1 mth....dun think dat i will be rotting and on my computer 24 hours like the past few weeks liao...after dat will my driving lessons also....so i guess the next 2 mths at least gt something to do,not like now like a fei ren...haha...

1st post~!!

2004-06-09T17:14:00.000+08:00
finally created a blog....haha....really difficult at first,duno spent how long doing....but after download the skin den slowly explore,finally created tis blog liao....

this week is rather interesting compared to my previous dull weeks(ever since i graduate).....

1)Found my first love at last......too bad.......
i was found by my ex primary 5 classmate:dyana.....though she was not really close to me,however she played a 'crucial' role tis time....her first msg to me was:"are you the jiasheng who stood up in class one day to confess your love to minli?"...
lolx...tis is one of my most embarrassing yet daring moments in my life....as i will be transfering sch the next yr,since dat was the last day of sch...i decided to confess my love to minli...though she did not tell me how she feel,i only found out she likes me after i had moved to pasir ris....too bad,i was young dat time,did not always travel back to Ang Mo kio to find her....only went back twice to find her(and ex schmates)....dats y our relationship din develope any further...
after so long never contact liao,i noe i will find her back in friendster one day....i tried searching for minli in friendster b4,but too bad din managed to find her....however,thanks to dyana,who later told me dat minli is in her contact...wow,no wonder i cant find her,cos she put her name as Alyssa instead of minli....haha.....sometimes is like dat,when tried so hard finding someone,u just cant find her.....when u stop trying liao,u find her out of nowhere....
but too bad......found out minli is attached =(...lol....but anyway,was really happy she wrote me a testimonial..she still havent forgot that embarrasing incident.....

2)Feng's Birthday
nowadays seldom go out liao......but when i go out i guess i had enjoyed myself....went to feng's birthday last sun.....although not as fun as last yr(so many absentess esp JIEQI..haha).....plus his friends trying to act beng,gt one instance even wanna use a beer bottle to whacked us juz becos kenvin throw a corn accidentally hit a ger....they can accuse us throwing stone -_-"...but at the end of e day,quite enjoyed la,ate alot of chicken wings n hotdogs(thks to zhixiong n aaron who cook those food), plus me and kenvin and guo jing keep 'tortured' aaron,using the bao xian zhi & aluminium foil to wrap his whole body(effective way for pple who wanna jian fei...haa²)....we 3 even end up waiting for the 1st bus after yusuke send us to bedok.....as usual,me and guo jing still v much awake,while kenvin had dozed off while waiting for bus...haha.....

3)2 left for NS,still got 4 more survivors
my attachment friends,charles and cheekeong are going NS tis week and next week respectively.....after quite a while never gathered at nite,luckily kelvin is able to use his brother's car.....we went to changi village....as usual,go there eat supper,see ah guas,tok cock all nite long,stay till 3 plus am den go home....although we seldom meet up each other nowadays,i am glad dat we did not drift apart...still gt endless things to tok abt everytime each time we met up....hope we can one day organise a outing for all the rest of the NYP & Tp pple,esp leeser,maggie and yiyin they all...long time nv see them oso liao.....

4)Advance theory Test
tomoro is advance theory test....study alot liao....revision and trial test oso go few times liao...hope everything goes smoothly and i can pass everything at 1 go.....